Every Moment Every Turn

The Cautious Rabbit and the Enthusiastic Dragon

2011-12-31T15:51:00.006+08:00

I have treaded 2011 with much caution just like the general forecast for the year of the rabbit.

Started the year with a resolution and in a way had at least 70% of it accomplished even though it was very late in the year.

Work front had been a cycle of ups and down. I have settled with the position and seen changes with my new team. Tiff transfered to Korean Sales and I got to have Krista. Naome resigned and was replaced by Jot. Along the way I had several OJT's that I had the honor of teaching at work. From Liezel to Kin to Karl and Eric.

At the home front, mom had her stay dates with us here in Mactan. She was even with us when we had our annual Boracay trip. Mom's health was still a concern though.

While PJ's had to struggle with his mom's fight against cancer. We were very relieved when the treatment helped a lot for his mom to recover.

PJ got an offer with a promotion to lead the Front Office team over at Lahug. His resignation caused quite a drama coinciding with the exodus of several key people from the resort. I was doubly affected when my DOSM resigned at the same time. I am thankful that I have learned a lot from my boss. I was priviledge to have worked with him. Again, we do with what we have.

PJ's transfer had paved the way for me to get back to working out. One of his perk is a discounted rate for his dependents at their gym while he got to work out for free. Quite late in the year but it was still welcome.

Also happening late was a call for a job offer. After being shortlisted I got an offer which was really hard to resist. I have for the longest time have been putting it on hold things are quite busy here at work. Jot is transferring to account sales while Krista will be delivering quite soon.

It is New Year's Eve and I have made this blog without much thought. This is quite therapeutic for me since this time while I am scribbling helps me to do some retrospect. I have in one way or another weighed my options. There will be work that I will be leaving behind and there will be new work to be done.

PJ and I have never been more at ease, err more in love with each other. Try as I might to ruin what we have, PJ had been the sane one to see through my insanity. He shared my family as I have shared his. We are trying to build a home now. That is our goal.

I have seen from somewhere that I will be able to achieve great success in 2012. It would be a time for me to realize my dreams.

We Do With What We Have

2011-09-25T12:20:00.009+08:00

Day 3 for Sales and Marketing activity filled week was our very own Team building and planning.

It was a sudden activity. Our GM wants to

spend time with the department to further enhance the groups direction towards the goal.

Good thing Jotjot was able to recommend a resort in Malapascua Island as an alternative to the originally planned Bohol trip. As usuall half of the expense was bartered.

My last trip to that island was 2005 so it was a welcome distraction though I am not a fan of long distance land travel.

It took us around 4 hours to reach the port going to the island. From there it was another 20 minutes by boat.

The island did not dissapoint. From my previous visit at least there are now some resorts that have at least 3 star ammenities.

We arrived at the island just in time for lunch. As always I was first in line, just to break the ice besided I was famished.

We were suppose to have Erwin facilitate our teambuilding but has to beg off because his baby was sick. So it was an impromptu organization for me. Good thing Janice was around to lend her help.

The activities went well, the planning was short but sweet. The teambuilding was targeted to showcase communication, teamwork and creativity.

All in all I would say that this activity was a perfect way to cap off the week that was. We were able to savor the fruits of our hard work alongside the team that had made it all worth while.

Here's hoping that we hit that target. Happy Selling Everyone.

Power of Two

2011-09-23T20:32:00.012+08:00

Day 2 for the event filled week at Imperial Palace was the 2nd Anniversary celebration last September 16, 2011. The preparation committee was headed by our beloved PR Manager, Kyra Cabaero with me and our ever so endearing Entertainment Manager, Erwingle Lim.

Our troika was given at least a month to prepare for this. It was suppose to be a small gathering but since we have new ownership and a somewhat fresh set of EXECOM, our Director of Sales and Marketing, Mr. Jun Cordova wanted to create an impact. Short but sweet as he puts it.

We settled for an outdoor gig, something fresh, vibrant and crisp which was a different route from what we had the previous year.

Our initial plan for a fashion show highlighted by our top

travel and corporate partners was shelved because of the chairman's preference for something simple. DOSM showcasing his creative juice provided us direction on his vision which all of us agreed would create a great review.

Coincidently, premier events organizers Stanz Catalan and Mark Masa was onboard to give us a hand. The preparation process was scheduled

smooth as silk done mostly over dinner hosting of kimchi rice.

I was in-charge for the set-up aspect and had to source out outdoor furniture that fits our requirement for a white chic get-up. There was also a last minute trouble with the dome tent set-up but nothing that can't be handled.

The dinner cocktail program lived up to its hype despite some manageable flaw. Again as our DOSM described it - short but sweet. Everyone was impressed by it so we had some little time to savor the fruits of our month long labor.

The team was very pleased with what we have accomplished for the 2nd year and this celebration was the exclamation point for it.

Here's hoping to see each other again next anniversary celebration.

Be Like a Child

2011-09-21T20:15:00.008+08:00

As our way of thanking everyone for the 2 years of blessed partnership Imperial Palace organized a way of giving back to the community by inviting kids of the Pardo Elementary School Dancing Rondalla to enjoy a day of fun and activities at the Imperial Palace Waterpark Resort and Spa.

We have invited our top account partners to join us to act as big brothers and big sisters for the kids. Together with IP's Executive Committee and the S

ales and Marketing Team, the kids were treated to a sumptuous feast during lunch at Familia Buffet Restaurant. The kids' big brothers and big sisters sees to it that their little brothers and sisters got a good fill.

At the Kids Club, Ms. Carol and her team prepared fun activities that fostered a bonding moment with the kids and their big brothers and sisters. All kids were painted with art tatoo and were given loot bags of candies and other sweet goodies.

The kids together with their big brothers and sisters were treated to a fun and interactive "Peter Pan" Musical prepared by the Amigos. Everybody had a great time and right after the musical, the Amigos invited all the kids to swim the "Peter Pan" characters.

The kids' big brothers and sisters from our top corporate partners prepared some tokens for their little brothers and sisters. Everyone got some sort of token.

The kids will not be outdone by their big counterpart as they gave a very memorable performance as their thank you for a wonderful day that they had.

Everybody left with a big smile in their face. It is indeed in giving that we let others experience the joy of being alive.

2011-09-21T20:15:00.000+08:00

A Balanced Life

2011-09-20T22:20:00.007+08:00

HRRAC's sportsfest which is done every other year provides hotelier members to balance their work-life with sports by competing with other member of HRRAC.

This is Imperial Palace second time to join and have placed third against powerhouse Shangri-la Mactan.

This year I played volleyball. Our team emerged Champions after besting Shangri-la, Cebu White Sands, Plantation Bay and Marriott.

It was a fruitful event and I'm thankful that HRRAC had provided hoteliers an outlet to do something that fostered commaraderie and gave everyone something to blow the steam, so to speak.

Here's hoping that by my next participation, management sees to it that their support is much appreciated.

Erratum: This just in -Papoy Cuizon Suelto don't forget that we defeated the defending champions - TEAM MARCO POLO, which was a crucial game...

we may live different lives, we may walk different roads, we may have different principles but still we emerged as ONE!

KUDOS IP VOLLEYBALL TEAM!!!

Merry Meet Again Potter

2011-07-16T16:56:00.014+08:00

I've invited everyone I know to see the last installment of the Harry Potter franchise, and this time we are to see it in IMAX. Been a decade now since I first saw HP and the Sorcerer's Stone which incidentally happens to be here in Cebu also.

With all things mystical I have had the constant affinity to identify almost immediately to the characters by JK Rowling. I am those three finding their niche in the world, just wanting to feel that they too belong. I am those three that had grown to appreciate one another and braved all the odds. Yeah what mere muggle like me could wish to identify to the complicated lives by those three.

I've been skeptical learning they have split the Deathly Hallows in two parts. I've said that before and I might even have blogged it. 1st part was dragging, well at least for me and I was still dissapointed that there were several elements from the book not tackled. But that was forgivable come the second part. Still it could have been better if the fierce battle between Minerva McGonagall and Severus Snape been given more air time. I have to initiate an applause and was glad the moviegoers follow suit.

And now after the first killing curse by "one who should not be named" finishes its job of killing the "boy who lived" it seems everything was at its end. But wait didn't the "one who should not be named" used the blood of the "boy who lived" which in effect protects him from being hurt by "you know who". Now that's double jeoperdy for you.

Always wonder why put Deathly Hallow in all the mix, maybe just to remind us that time immemorial we have always try to avoid the inevitable. Again it's just me.

Will and Grace is gone, Sex in the City is gone and now HP. Wonder what I'll look forward to next time around. Oh I forgot, we still have Breaking Dawn.

Up Close with GM Simon Yang

2011-07-10T19:27:00.007+08:00

“Cebu is a very beautiful Island, comparable to your neighboring Bali and Phuket, the challenge lies on how we can let others experience what Cebu has to offer. “ This was the initial answer offered by our newest General Manager, Mr. Simon Yang when I asked him how he’d find Cebu.

It was a very casual interview, I had set-up an appointment with Ms. Ivy the moment I learned that the newsletter’s editorial team had took the liberty electing me to interview our GM. I was tucked away at the Events Office when GM Simon dropped by and reminded me that I have to see him. Good thing I made that appointment.

“We are an ideal family destination. And I am positive that in due time we will be the best Family destination in Asia.” GM Simon Yang was straightforward when describing his vision for the property, “couple it with the Filipino’s brand of hospitality it’s a sure win” he added.

GM Simon has been busy building relationship with our client base. During his first month he had met up with our key account partners alongside the Sales and Marketing Team and had scheduled sales trip to our Manila Sales Office to further strengthen our bond with our market base. “I need to take lead for us to meet our vision. Hotel property is different; let’s say from a manufacturing company. If a manufacturing company produces a computer for instance, they could still sell that computer anytime. For us once we lost an opportunity to sell our rooms, it’s lost forever.”

“We need to get ourselves out there, so that people will know that we are here.” If you are browsing your dailies lately or tuning in to your favorite television program you may notice that we have been getting some air time so to speak. “It’s one way of us getting exposure, our PR inviting media people over for dinner to discuss our new promotions or sales account managers sponsoring familiarization tours, these are things that will help us get the word out there that we are here.” In fact, GM just came from PHILTOA’s 25th year anniversary held at Makati along with several IP employees to receive an award as one of the top 10 Luxe destinations in the Philippines. PHILTOA or Philippine Tour Operators Association is an organization of tour operators and allied members actively involved in the advocacy of responsible tourism.

I have asked him to expound on what he means regarding the Filipino’s brand of hospitality. “I’ve been to a lot of places around the world and almost everywhere you can see Filipinos. And everyone around the world recognizes that talent and charm. It’s our advantage. The Filipinos attitude and kindness and willingness to try new things, that’s your brand of hospitality.” Indeed GM Simon Yang has been around the world starting as the Sales and Recreation Manager of the 5 star Pacific Islands Club (PIC) Resort in Saipan. Ask our Korean guests about Imperial and you would surely get an answer that we are like PIC. He soon became Regional Director for the Pacific Island Holiday in Seoul, Korea. He had been to most part of Asia serving as Project Development Consultant. He was most recently the Group General Manager at the Holiday Resort and Spa in Guam and the Rota Resort and Country Club in the Mariana Islands before joining us here as General Manager.

“We have a very unique concept, what we are working on now is to develop our unique system, our own unique process to enable us to share Imperial Palace Waterpark Resort & Spa Cebu’s unique lifestyle experience.” According to GM Simon it is a work-in-progress. Once we establish and get our system working, GM Simon is looking forward to introduce our hotel concept to other destination. “I also need to create new opportunities for the property and for everyone here for that matter.” Now that’s something to look forward to for everyone.

Much Needed

2011-03-25T20:37:00.003+08:00

Onwards to Making Better Memories 2011

2011-01-01T00:20:00.019+08:00

... Work
1. To contribute to the success of Imperial Palace Cebu by
a. Strengthening the Events Department by:
i. Integrating the Sales and Catering Program of Opera to the daily operations of Events Sale to properly manage all Events activity
ii. Create an Events campaign dubbed MOMENTS to create better awareness for IP’s capabilities in holding large scale events and intimate social gathering
iii. Streamlining events packages by offering tier rates to accommodate specific guest’s events requirement
iv. Working hand-in-hand with Corporate Accounts for MICE requirements
v. Initiating worthwhile Events to help generate revenue and awareness of the property
2. To create better network of clients, suppliers and industry partners to expand network base for possible event leads, etc.
3. To thoroughly learn the hotel business by immersing to learn other departments specialized task i.e. reservations, check-in and out, make-up rooms, etc.

Personal
1. To balance my work and social life by:
a. Setting up a quite time for reflection everyday
b. Having a cardio-activity thrice a week
c. A simple 15 minute work-out everyday
2. To set aside a time to pursue travel at least twice this year
3. To set up a savings account

Christmas 2010

2010-12-27T02:27:00.001+08:00

Not the usual Christmas but still a Christmas to remember.

Day Tour

2010-12-26T19:08:00.004+08:00

Been living down here in the south and this is my first time to visit Bohol. At least something to brag before the year ends.

Bad Bad

2010-12-26T18:49:00.005+08:00

Before things got unnoticed and be buried with the rest of the rubbles, here are some memories from 2010.

Cross Roads

2010-09-16T21:41:00.002+08:00

During ancient times Hecate would be the favorite choice to invoke if one is on a cross road. This isn't ancient times but I feel like invoking her. Shouts desperation isn't it? If only someone or something can make things better for me sans the dilemma of painfully stressing myself wouldn't it be such fun? Then again this is the very reason why being in a cross road for me is such a pain.

Shame

2010-09-11T00:19:00.016+08:00

Shame!

Loving loving loving this collaboration. Man it's been ages, 15 years if I'm not mistaken. Gary Barlow and Robbie Williams, just prove to show there is redemption. Better than their bickering, the way they sound together is something I have longed for. Very apt after a night of heated discussion.

Man it's just a sound of sweet surrender.


























Well there’s three versions of this story mine,
yours and then the truth
And we can put it down to circumstance,
our childhood, then our youth
Out of some sentimental gain I wanted you to feel my pain,
but it came back return to sender
I read your mind and tried to call,
my tears could fill the Albert Hall,
is this the sound of sweet surrender?











What a shame we never listened
I told you through the television
And all that went away was the price we paid
People spend a lifetime this way
Oh what a shame.













So I got busy throwing everybody underneath the bus
And with your poster 30 foot at the back of Toys-R-Us
I wrote a letter in my mind,
but the words were so unkind,
about a man I can’t remember
I don’t recall the reasons why,
I must have meant them at the time,
is this the sound of sweet surrender?















What a shame we never listened
I told you through the television
And all that went away was the price we paid
People spend a lifetime this way
And that’s how they stay
Oh what a shame.
















Words come easy, when they’re true
Words come easy, when they’re true


So I got busy throwing everybody underneath the bus
And with your poster 30 foot at the back of Toys-R-Us
Now we can put it down to circumstance,
our childhood then our youth.

What a shame we never listened
I told you through the television
And all that went away was the price we paid
People spend a lifetime this way
And that’s how they stay
Oh what a shame.













People spend a lifetime this way
Oh what a shame
Such a shame, what a shame

F&B Team Building

2010-09-03T19:27:00.011+08:00

Summer Retreat

2010-05-01T13:09:00.011+08:00

Twice In a Week

2010-04-22T00:59:00.005+08:00

When presented with an offer that in a way helps alleviate your boredom with the status quo the distraction in a way allows you some perspective that is both anxiety ridden and exciting. - Later it's 3 minutes pass 1 in the morning and the bed is calling. Actually someone is... :P

Clearing of Thoughts

2010-03-25T16:41:00.004+08:00

It's just that I feel like going with flow is the way to go. Even my sentence structure seems to agree with the current state of my mind. I don't like the word overwhelmed simply because I am not. Let's just put it that I was silly to even think that what I was given would simply be that simple. Well at first I thought so. I just like this orchestrated overcompensation. Beside inflating this overrated ego of mine is way past its due. It's is not that simple I'm telling but I think I'm slowly getting there. There, nonetheless is still a big mystery.

Invictus

2010-01-25T01:16:00.004+08:00

It was my freshman year in Lipa. The subject was Reading by Mrs. Madamba. Minnie Wash was to recite before me. With all his slang theatrics, I master enough confidence to recite my own part. I guess that was when my affection for afflection materialise. Nonetheles I recited my part with gusto. That was the start of my affair with literature.

Forward January 24, 2010. D had this romantic incling to watch this forsaken film. Redeeming factor was the movie trailer before that and I was dumbfounded to have heard it again. Now its part of this blog, and forever I will safekeep it as my treasure.

Sidenote, Sir Torex uploaded our yearbook pictures and it sure brings back time.

Out of the night that covers me,
Black as the pit from pole to pole,
I thank whatever gods may be
For my unconquerable soul.

In the fell clutch of circumstance
I have not winced nor cried aloud.
Under the bludgeonings of chance
My head is bloody, but unbowed.

Beyond this place of wrath and tears
Looms but the Horror of the shade,
And yet the menace of the years
Finds and shall find me unafraid.

It matters not how strait the gate,
How charged with punishments the scroll,
I am the master of my fate:
I am the captain of my soul.

Endings

2010-01-02T12:26:00.000+08:00

Received a text message from January. Albert's father just passed away. I was in shock. For me it was all too sudden. No details as of yet, my knees are still shaking. Told Jen to hug Albert for me. Lorenzo called and was also in a state of shock. He's talking with Charles right now. I am waiting for the details.

I love You! Good Bye!

2009-12-31T22:31:00.030+08:00

Sounds cheesy isn't it? And it's not Star Cinema's entry to the MMFF either. It's about the year that was 2009.

I started the year with a much needed break from my previous work. I have spent the last decade of my existence slaving over all the known holidays here in the Philippines and boy do we have a number of it. Hence every after holiday I make sure I got to go home to Manila and Batangas to have my much needed R&R. I got to touch base and nourish my self by being in touch with my roots.

Had been missing Ika for years and now that she is with my mom, seeing here with the family is something that makes me smile. Not to mention the wacky barkada. It wouldn't really be the same without the Bareto sister going against each other. The waiting at Serendra to the non-stop laughter going to Ortigas to the scare at Malate then all those hugs when I was heading back to Cebu, all those moments became even more meaningful by being with people I proudly call my family and friends.

2009 had given me the biggest disappointment in my career by being confronted with work ethics. The old cliche of "you can't please everyone" proved to hurtful for me. My performance suddenly became erratic, worst it was uninspired. The experience was again something entirely alien to me. I had been demotivated and it scare the hell out of me. It was a learning experience, a painful and humiliating one at that. But I was blessed because I had a very good mentor. Little by little I tried to gain momentum. Little by little I tried to survive. Again another cliche of "those which does not kill you make you stronger".

2009 had opened a new door for my career. After the ordeal at my previous property, I transfered to a new property. I was offered a a very enticing position. It was a risk considering the financial crisis situation of the year. Besides I just had started my portfolio as a hotelier. But it's one risk that had opened my heart to so much learning and appreciation. My decade in the hospitality industry had made me more confident to face my new task. Still the prospect of learning from my new team excites me to no end. It was like a new leash on my career, one which I so dearly appreciate even up to this day.

In the work front, I was introduced to people whom I had all the respect for in terms of appreciation. I've got to learn new stuffs from them and also felt that I belong. Work also gave me the opportunity to go places. It was all worth it.

My constant prayer for a social life was heard, topped with finding a love one. It was something I have hoped for and the year which was 2009 graciously granted me. It was a welcome addition to my routine of work house work. And now it seems like I'm not so alone after all.

I have so many things to point out for the year that was. It is the last day of 2009 and while on the way to work I can't help but smile and be thankful. I love you 2009 and now its time to say goodbye! Onwards to making better memories and I promise I won't put my happiness on hold!

I love Crazy!

2009-11-20T00:17:00.002+08:00

I am never a guy who would go bald without putting up theatrics. I never play it safe, uhmmm well let me quatify that, most of the time I try to be out there! And I am embrasing that fact. I just love crazy!

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2009-11-16T10:48:00.001+08:00

AlterEGO

2009-11-04T12:10:00.020+08:00

Macau Trip

2009-10-28T19:31:00.024+08:00

3rd Asian Cocktail Championship

2009-10-26T19:11:00.011+08:00

Perfect Doesn’t Always Look Like What You Imagine

2009-06-11T23:40:00.004+08:00

I always got to sleep late. It could have been because I've spent almost 8 years doing the night shifts. Or it could just be how a friend had put it. I might have been thinking and worrying too much about nothing. I'm not blogging about another self pity post. I have had spent too much whining and I think I've had enough of it. And it's after taste is just bad taste. Indulge me it's just how I open up a post, always with my patented cynicism. I am a drama king after all.

Late last year I had this breather. It was just several days but I had tons of fun and it had in a way reminded me of good times where my laughter was genuine and my worries were nonexistence. It was a feeling of belongingness. Belongingness that I had consciously shunned because I was overtly insecure. Growing up I have been lead to believe that I am privileged. I remember a dear teacher lecturing the class that our downfall would be our inability to cope up with failure. I brushed it off thinking she doesn't know what she was talking about. I should have paid more attention to her wisdom. It could have saved me sleepless nights of doubting myself. Yet again, knowing how stubborn I am I would have taken the same route. With that realization, all those years of anxiety is my own process of learning. Twisted but it's me.

The happy accident of me being in a new working environment had made me realize that my twisted self needs to be more accepting and understanding. It was one venture that had opened my eyes to the diversity that is around me. My logical reasoning was tested with patience and more importantly with morals. I had a bit downfall there. Ok, it was huge. I have learned to step out of my comfort zone and to actually extend my whole being. The experience was humbling. Again with my twisted version of learning, it had taken a bit of me. Ok it had taken a large chunk of my ego. I was fortunate enough though to have a mentor who believed in me and colleagues that had expressed their support without prejudice. Again it stung but it's a pain that is necessary and one that I understand.

That time late last year when I was with the company of family and friends, I realized that I belong. I need not run away. They are there telling me that come what may, I am theirs and that is all that matters.

I might have impede my growth but I have realized that time is not yet lost. I have never lost faith but my inability to see those which are essential had. My being overly dramatic had blinded me to see that perfect is not always what I have imagined!

I appreciate that time late last year. I laughed and smiled back and poured my heart without fear and restraint. I was with family, with friends and I belong!

Can’t you just thank me and get over it?

2009-06-02T08:49:00.004+08:00

Director Catherine Hardwicke had brilliantly executed a fine marriage of screenplay by Melissa Rosenberg with the original novel of Stepahnie Meyer, a feat I have only appreciated done by Peter Jackson with J.K. Tolkien’s “The Lord of the Rings”. No thanks to all facebook accomplices who constantly flood their status bar with drooling over Rob Pattinson and of their fondest wish to become his stalker. I dig that honestly, it’s a classic Jack Macfarland move for Kevin Bacon which if my dear friends over at facebook could accomplish to get acquainted with would roughly give them a respectable 6 degrees of separation from Edward Cullen.

I’m writing about “Twilight” off course! And vampyrs are almost always my genre. Honestly at first I couldn’t get the fuss about another undead novel which almost always goes tragic in the end. I still have not outgrown my frustration from the film adaptation of “The Queen of the Damned” compounded with resentment of the fact that this little novel by Ms. Meyer is taking some heat from my beloved bespectacled boy wizard “Harry Potter”. Again it is almost always my case for bias.

“I don’t have the strength to stay away from you anymore.” - And I’m writing this after painstakingly downloading the film while appearing to be busy with paper works. Maui and Karen are such angels for being so selfless with their professing of support which off course is me sugar coating their bordering to stalking panache.

“Everything about me invites you in.” – And yet I’m restraining myself. I have so much to write about how I feel about this movie but I’m taking Edward’s advice to just enjoy the moment. I’m giving in as if I can outrun him. Of course Bella would resolve otherwise. The girl knows what she wants.

First Day High!

2009-06-01T09:18:00.007+08:00

Having no tv has its disadvantage. I didn't realize that today is the first day of classes hence the chaos in the street. Good thing I got up early hoping to catch Mcdo's hotcakes. Ok after seeing the streets crowded with PUJ I just knew I'd have tomorrow for the hotcakes.

I'm a little envious of the little devils carefree on their stand while on assembly for the national anthem. Those carefree days were what I would exchange a couple of hotcakes for. But thinking about how I am faring now, though its a toughy, I am thankful!

Now I truely appriciate how our innocent lives as a child could bring joy to our olderselves. Everytime I am faced with children aimlessley enjoying themselves to the worries of the world, I pause and smile my brightest knowing hope is still around.

Rest and Relaxation

2009-05-22T14:24:00.015+08:00

Frolic

2009-05-17T15:57:00.003+08:00

This was the longest of the dry spell that I have ever allowed to happen with this blog of mine. I just couldn't find my rythm, the tempo. I just could not have my groove back.

It started just at the end of my stint with Cebu. One strong suit of mine is my instinct and I could see something wrong is waiting to happen. It usually works to my advantage but only if I can do something about it. During that time, it was beyond me and if I don't get out of the way, I may end up as a casualty, far worse that I have become because of that ordeal.

Fortune smiled and I was transported to the nearby island. Amidst the controversies and of only 2 days rest, I came onboard one of the most admired name in the hospitality industry. I was happy, for a time till I realised that I have yet to measure my fortitude as a human.

And I had to live by my decision. It was a struggle and I have slipped to the point where I have deteriorated. The experience was humbling. One which if given by chance I would have not wanted to tread but it was a necessity, if only for me to gain a proper perspective.

And now a new begining. A much bolder one and I am shaking. With the blood drawn out of a collegue. It's a warning. A clear one that I need to be on my toes as always. This time is going to be much clearer. I only pray that I might be sustained...

IP

2009-04-29T22:30:00.009+08:00

Man Cry

2009-04-29T21:56:00.007+08:00

Seems like all my worries were carried along by my tears. Therapeutic, I am telling you. Now that my asthma is preventing me to light a smoke these tears were a welcome distraction from the toxicity of the pre-opening requirement that I have to oblige. It's really a happy accident that I was craving for a halo-halo that night which prompted me to drop by Marina Mall on my way home. Since I don't really approve of waiting for my take-out I decided to do some malling first just to kill time whilst waiting for my icy dessert. There were several ripped of dvd stalls and I decided that it has been a while since I got myself an illegal copy. I said what the heck and decided to browse through all the displays and found what I have been looking for - Marley with his undeniable gaze lined a smile accross my face and that was it. After hugling with the attendant I was able to get it for a fair amount and briskly went out thinking my dessert might get ruined.

The story grows up on you. A typical carrer oriented American couple torn between having a family and building their respective careers. It's a big step actually if you are owning a dog. The responsibility of raising up a dog is akin to raising up your own children. Trust me, the guilt I am feeling now becase I have to ask my mom to look after my Ika is killing me.

Problem arises when your real kids starts to pop in and it's really heartbreaking seeing Marley spend a night with what his name was. I can not be any hateful of Jen's character but at the same time I know it's the stress that had build up over the years. The way Luke's character find humor and that human connection with Marley is what I admire most of the story telling. Yep it did help that his profession as a writer invoke that connection and an actual bonding with me as its audience. Story telling accompanied by visual stimulates my viewing pleasure.

And I have to admit, I know how the story will commence but I'm still hanging on my seat hoping and praying things will turn out as I would have want it to. And then the undeniable urge of sorrow surfacing and the sudden outburst of tears... I am such a baby!

Farewell

2009-04-04T14:09:00.003+08:00

April 4, 2009

Ms. Luisa Bacaltos
F & B Manager
Hilton Cebu Resort and Spa

Dear Ms. Bojic,

For the past year , I have been blessed to have found employment at Hilton. Through your guidance and management I was able to nurture my fledgling aspiration to provide for myself and to stand up on
my own. I have found a sense of belongingness which had not only motivated but had inspired me to be the best that I can be.

The opportunity that came my way through your trust has made me the competent man that I am now. The experiences I have had with the resort and the people that I have the pleasure of working with along with all those I have encountered through my employment with the property had allowed me to develop my appreciation for individual differences which in turn had allowed me an opp to grow and mature not only in this line of work but also as a striving person searching for my niche in this world.

I am proud of what I have achieved and accomplished with the property. I was not contended with mediocrity, I have always strive to give my very best. I have been a good follower, a good soldier and also an able leader. And though hard times were inevitable, the times when my hard work was acknowledged by your gentle pat in the shoulder and my team members’ simple gestures of thanks makes everything worth the while.

It is now time for me to spread my own wings and venture the world and its offerings. I am officially resigning from my post as Restaurant Outlet Manager of the Cebu Property. Through this correspondence I am serving my 1 month notice. I am enthusiastically eager to venture on my own risk though I am confident because I have been taught well.

It is in goodwill and with the fondest of memories that
I leave Hilton Cebu Resort and Spa. My best regards and more power.

Yours,

Emet.Sendin, Jr.

C L

2009-02-04T00:50:00.003+08:00

Merry One!

2008-12-30T02:11:00.087+08:00

The month was hectic with both its toxicity and excitement. I am savoring the thrill both at work and the cool breeze of December. Rather enthusiastic, that would have been my state of anticipation for my very first Christmas celebration with my new gig.

Festive Season

2008-12-06T15:23:00.005+08:00

Be My Guest!

2008-06-18T15:23:00.012+08:00

I Love Me More!

2008-05-31T23:57:00.011+08:00

Everyone seems excited by the latest Tita Shawee installment that I was surprised to see no one as passionate as me that the film adaptation of the all time great Sex And The City is showing all over town. Several from work did ask me to join them see a movie but they wanted Tita Shawee's and my reaction was just eieeew! I'd rather get caught with an awful early morning breathe than to get caught watching that! Besides I wouldn't waste my hard earn bucks on that. Though love.

I decided to go and see Sex and the City even though I was bummed out by having to see it alone (and another realization but its a topic for another blog entry). As Big had put it, the joke was on me. Having to see a barkada slash feel good love flick all by yourself is a little emotionally challenging. Amusing? Well that is to say the least!

I missed Carrie's mussings! I miss all the girls in that behalf. I remember that I would just stock up on chitchiria's just to make my viewwing all pleasurable. But what I really miss was seeing that interaction between good friends celebrating how it is to live life. And the ladies of SATC have in a way whet my appetite for the good life.

Idol

2008-05-22T01:11:00.011+08:00

I'm totally bummed out by missing so many post. It's the toxicity of my schedule now. But unlike what I had before, I very much prefer my time now. Next week is totally all work, I need to step up a notch and put some sense of order. And all of that is to stump my ground and lay the ground work.

Had enough of good old times rolling, enough to fill out my abyssmal lurking into nothingness. Well that was about 7 or 8 years or so. Regrets? Hmmmm!

Anyways, was able to pull-off this great Esprit Party! Something I'm really proud of. Speaks a lot of what I can do with my new gig. It helps that I have a great boss and some able collegues that helped me do my stuff. Just wanted to make a statement that everything is possible and that life is all good!

Always Be My Baby

2008-05-19T00:50:00.005+08:00

we were as one babe
for a moment in time
and it seemed everlasting
that you would always be mine
now you want to be free
so I'm letting you fly
cause i know in my heart babe
our love will never die,no!

you'll always be a part of me
i'm a part of you indefinitely
girl don't you know you can't escape me
ooh darling cause you'll always be my baby
and we'll linger on
time can't erase a feeling this strong
no way you're never gonna shake me
ooh darling cause you'll always be my baby

i ain't gonna cry no
and i won't beg you to stay
if you're determined to leave boy
i will not stand in your way
but inevitably you'll be back again
cause ya know in your heart babe
our love will never end no
you'll always be a part of me
i'm part of you indefinitely
girl don't you know you can't escape me
ooh darling cause you'll always be my baby
and we'll linger on
time can't erase a feeling this strong
no way you're never gonna shake me
ooh darlin cause you'll always be my baby

i know that you'll be back boy
when your days and your nights get a little bit colder ooohhh
i know that,you'll be right back, baby
oh, baby believe me it's only a matter of time
of time

you'll always be a part of me (oooohhhh)
i'm part of you indefinitely (oooohhhh)
girl don't you know you can't escape me (ooooohhhhhh)
ooh darlin cause you'll always be my baby
and we'll linger on (and we will linger on)
time cant erase a feeling this strong (ohhhh)
no way you're never gonna shake me (oh baby)
ooh darlin cause you'll always be my baby

you'll always be a part of me (yeah yeah oooohhhh)
i'm part of you indefinitely (oooohhhh)
girl don't you know you can't escape me (ooooohhhhhh)
ooh darlin cause you'll always be my baby (no no)
and we'll linger on (you and I will always be)
time cant erase a feeling this strong
no way you're never gonna shake me (you & I)
ooh darlin cause you'll always be my baby (you & I)

you and i will always be
no way your never gonna shake me
no way your never gonna shake me
you and i will always be..

Part-E!

2008-05-08T23:49:00.017+08:00

Pink and Green

2008-04-23T16:53:00.008+08:00

Fanboy Destress

2008-04-14T21:08:00.006+08:00

Copied this from Comick Books Universal Battle. Just hillarious and what I really needed this time to distress.

Callisto: Welcome to the Arena of Khazan and fight match number One Hundred and Sixty! We have an amazing spectacle for you today - The God of Thunder vs. The Immortal Champion of Amazons. Lets go down on the field now with our own Clown Girl who is with today's contestants.
Harley Quinn: Thank you Callisto. I'm standing here with Thor who is ready
for today's event. Now, Thor, you come from a pantheon of gods worshipped by
bloodthirsty, raiding, pillaging Vikings. How do you think that plays into the
event today?
Thor: Verily my Nordic kinsmen doth have a rambunctios side to their past. But let us dwell instead on today. Today the mighty norsemen are a peaceful and advanced people. Hast thou seen our Nokia cellphones?
Harley Quinn: So you feel that because the once glorious Vikings are now a bunch of marshmallow pansies in some way helps you out.
Thor: Listen sister, we were lighting the coasts of Europe aflame when the petty, promiscuous greeks were discovering man-boy love. Our philosophy was that of war. Our mathematics developed for the sword and sail. This warrior spirit holds true! Yon Greeks caved to the Romans like the French in World War II. Tell me not about pansies lest I smite thee ignorance with my hammer. Verily.
Harley Quinn: Right. Wonder Woman, would you have any reply to that?
Wonder Woman: The Greek people were the philosophers and scientists of the ancient world. And militarily... Alexander the Great. 'Nuff Said. You think the stinking Vikings could have turned Egypt into a province? Thought not. So, they irritated the Saxons a little. Who cares? At best the Vikings were annoying... at worst they were leeches living off the toil of other nations.
Thor: Say not these things Greecian fool! Your capricious, pandering, self absorbed dieties perfectly reflect the arrogant, empty headed mindset of the people who worship them!
Wonder Woman: If it wasn't for the Scandinavian Welfare State your people
would be living out of the garbage bins of Germany and Britan.
Thor: Vie! Foul tounged harlot! What hast Greece done for Me
lately? Exported olive oil and lived off the subsidies of the E.U. and U.S.
since 1945!
Wonder Woman: How dare you!
Thor: Verily! And why doest thou dress in hot pants and red hooker boots like a New
York whore? Truly thou be a disciple of the promiscuous Aphrodite!
Wonder Woman: I'll shut that whale blubber eating hole of yours!
Thor: Bring it on!
Harley Quinn: Oh CRIPES! Wonder Woman throws a left... Thor blocks with his forearm, swings his hammer... Wondy jumps back avoiding the hit... Oh, man, this is gonna get nasty. I'm outta here.
Callisto: Wonder Woman jumped back! She barely avoided that hammer swing! Landing on the balls of her feet... as the hammer ends it's arc, she presses off again... using her insanely powerful leg muscles to spring forward like an angry tiger right at Thor!
Harley Quinn: Oh, this bitch is mad, ey Cally? I can't remember when I've seen Wondy with such fury in her eyes!
Callisto: Wonder Woman hits Thor in a flying tackle like a ton of bricks, itching to get her hands on the golden haired norseman!
Harley Quinn: The two go down together! Thor hits the Arena sand flat on his back, Wonder Woman on top and astride in the female dominant position...
Callisto: As it should be, of course.
Harley Quinn: But no! Fast as lightning the powerful male thunder god whips one powerful arm around her thin, barbie-like waist and rolls her over! Positions reversed!
Callisto: My, it's getting a bit warm in here.
Harley Quinn: Thor lifts his hammer high! This could be it!
Thor: Thou needest a taming, wildcat!
Harley Quinn: But no! Wonder Woman kicks her long red booted legs up and
wraps them around Thor's muscular neck! With a powerful heave she jerks the
Thunder God off her and rolls back on top!
Callisto: Wonder Woman wastes no time pinning Thors arms to the ground, and lays her legs out, ankle to ankle, pinning his legs as well!
Harley Quinn: It's a precarious position! Neither one has limbs free to strike at the other. You can see the incredible tension in their faces as Thor fights to get release and Wonder Woman bears down to keep him still.
Callisto: I think Thor has the strength edge here. In a battle of raw strength I believe Wonder Woman will have to give in the end...
Harley Quinn: But what's this!? Obeying her telepathic commands, the Golden Lasso of Truth strikes like a cobra! Whipping around Thor's pinned arms!
Callisto: Besides making people tell the truth, the Lasso is also unbreakable! Could be a major advantage for Wonder Woman, here...
Wonder Woman: Now, golden haired cretin, you will speak the truth from your insulting mouth!
Thor: Aye! Speak the truth I shall. Verily woman, thou breast size is huge! I wasn't going to speak it, but yon lasso just squeezed the truth right out of me!
Harley Quinn: Thor throws all his might into shucking Wonder Woman... he succeeds! Callisto: Wondy is thrown clear of the Thunder God, does a flip in mid air and lands on her feet...
Harley Quinn: But Thor is up now, too. His arms are a bit tied up, but he still manages to throw his hammer!
Callisto: Wonder Woman dodges the flying hammer and launches an assault again!
Harley Quinn: Using less fury and more tactics this time, Wondy and
Goldilocks go sparring toe to toe!
Callisto: Both are incredible martial masters, but the raging Amazon seems to have the edge here with Thor's arms hampered by the Golden Lasso of Truth.
Harley Quinn: But wait! What's this? The magic hammer of Thor is speeding back on the return arc! Wonder Woman doesn't seem to see it...
Callisto: Yes, and it's on a collision course with her turned back! This is gonna be a spine cracker!
Thor: A worthy foe you may be, Grecian beauty, but prevail thou shall not!
Callisto: Wait! Spinning like a mongoose around a cobra, Wondy sidestepps and whirls with a flourish! Avoiding the hammer she lays both hands on the handle in mid air!
Harley Quinn: With perfect timing and applied strength, she directs it just enough to send it crashing into the Thunder God and lets go!
Callisto: Ouch! that's gotta hurt! Thor hits the sand yet again.
Harley Quinn: Wondy wastes no time finishing with a classic rodeo hog tie using the Golden Lasso.

I am just giddy having my favorite Icon of all time win a match. Fanboi! :)

Equilibrium

2008-03-13T22:57:00.020+08:00

I am now a part of the world's most admired hotel brand, albeit on my probationary stint which technically makes me a hotelier now! It was one of my goal, to be part of a rooster wherein I can be proud to say I belong. Now don't get me wrong, I would have not landed this job without the prior experience that I have acquired from my previous employment. I like to think of it as sharpening myself for the real deal. And now that I am here, I am determine to bring the best that I confidently know I am capable of.

When I first applied, I was quite hesitant because my resume would be my waterloo. My hotel experience was minimal to say the least. I applied for a lower position knowing I would have a better chance of getting in. I was honest when they asked me why not apply for a higher position. I told them that I may not have the experience of a hotel operation since the last restaurant I managed was free standing. I did tell them that I don't mind since I know my capablities and that I am secure with my profesional status.

I was glad when they call me back and even more elated when they told me that they will give me the assistant outlet managerial position as oppose to what I applied for as a supervisor. As enthusiast as I am to start right away, I still have to make my turn-over and endorsement to my last job. Took me quite a while and with lots of patience and sacrifice. I would have hoped to rest for a time and head back to my new work relaxed and well rested.

I was surprised the moment I started my new work. As awed as I am with my new environment, I was even more surprised to have the enthusiasm to carry me with the physicality and the pshycological demand of the work. It helps when you have prayers as a source of inspiration. But I would be quick to attest that I won't be able to hold as enthusiastically if I haven't call out to God for help. Our Lord ROCKS!

The timing was even almost perfect. I have always known that my instinct are spot on and this particular time had proven me right. Still I am treding this new water with some relieve and some anxiety. What I had before was almost akin to habbit. What I have now is something I would really hate to screw up. I know I am the captain of my own ship, still I may second guess myself and the old adage that you just could never please anyone.

This is a point where I feel I am now being given a chance to put back a little to what life has taken away. In a way I am excited, and sure as hell I am afraid.

Touching Base

2008-03-10T22:44:00.012+08:00

After 8 long years of running away from things I consider unfair, I have finally resolved that I have been the one who was unfair on myself and that life is what I make of it. It's so easy to just ignore reality and burry yourself with things that would take your mind of the mundane. Silly me, I have to be burned out to realize that the alternative to onething might even be harsher than the one your were suppose to run away from.

Lessons learned and life is calling, no more need to dwell on and sour grape. I am just full of enthusiasm now that I am 30.

I went back home with my Ika last March 14. It was rush. I've to make arrangements as briskly as possible. I booked the last flight as soon as I finished my prior commitments and never looked back. It was a relieve that I'd be touching base. I have for the longest time miss my roots. Our Lord is really good because He had paved the way, and His time was perfect. I am blessed.

I would be leaving Ika with my mom, the only person that I could entrust her with. Ika would be with her daughter, Sushi. It's really funny seeing them together. Sushi being the girly dog that she is was quite jelous seeing her mother around. Again its funny to see Sushi bigger than Ika. Its mixed right now actually, I would definitely miss Ika around but after this recharging, I would have to leave her for a moment to forge my future with something I am hopeful would be my definitive career. I promise to be back though and have her again by myside. I need to be strong for both of us.

It was always a welcome treat to spend time with the familiar. I miss my family and I'm just thankful that I got to spend time with sis and ma. I hope I could have more time to spend with pa but I know that I'll have that time, soon. I know he'd understand the timing of everything.

Lorenz was his usual self, vanity and all. I miss hanging out with him, luckily he's just around. Jenny and Albert would just have to make amends. At least Albert would be around by May.

Touching base had not only gave me my groove back, but also allowed me to realize that indeed life is what we make of it, with faith offcourse and trusting in His time.

15 Days Notice

2008-02-10T01:38:00.005+08:00

February 13, 2008

Ms. Vivian Te Fernandez
General Manager
Ratsky Entertainment Mousetrap

Dear Ma’am Vivian,

For the past seven years and so, I have been blessed to
have found employment in your wing. Through your guidance and management I was
able to nurture my fledgling aspiration to provide for myself and to stand up on
my own. I have found a sense of belongingness which had not only motivated but
had inspired me to be the best that I can be.

The opportunity that came my way through your trust has
made me the competent man that I am now. The experiences of the places I have
been to and the people that I have the pleasure of working with along with all
those I have encountered through my employment with the company had allowed me
to develop my appreciation for individual differences which in turn had allowed
me to grow and mature not only in this line of work but also as a striving
person searching for my niche in this world.

I am proud of what I have achieved and accomplished
with the company. I was not contended with mediocrity, I have always strived to
give my very best. I have been a good follower, a good soldier and also an able
leader. And though hard times were inevitable, the times when my hard work was
acknowledged by your gentle pat in the shoulder and my subordinates’ simple
gestures of thanks makes everything worth the while.

It is now time for me to spread my own wings and
venture the world and its offerings. I am officially resigning from my post as
Operations Manager of the Cebu Branch. Through this correspondence I am serving
my 15 days notice. I am enthusiastically eager to venture on my own risk though
I am confident because I have been taught well.

It is in goodwill and with the fondest of memories that
I leave Ratsky.My best regards and more power.

Yours,

Emet.Sendin, Jr.

Substitute Social Life

2008-01-08T23:15:00.002+08:00

The thing with having a cable less apartment is that one is forced to look for other means by which to entertain one’s self. Walking Ika only takes 30 minutes at most and eating siomai takes about the same time. With cable at least I could stay glued to it till I get really sleepy which is what I want after a day’s work- yeah I’ve got an inverted working sched. Being an insomniac and all, it’s a welcome activity rather than lying in bed tossing and turning while eventually getting up just to feel agitated because you are still awake. Of course there’s other means for me to get sleep but its either it won’t work or I’d get dehydrated!

Prior to our transfer to the new place, I have been enjoying several episodes of Ugly Betty along with Brother’s and Sisters at StarWorld. So I decided to have them on my list just in case I’ll come across them. My wish list includes the latest season for both Heroes and House. I decided I’ll drop Prison Break since I felt it had its glory days. So I got House, Ugly Betty, Brothers and Sisters, Heroes, Avatar-The Legend of Aang, Bleach, Shippuuden and Smallville. Now if that’s not a handful already, I don’t know what it is.

I know I am guilty of being gluttonous, once I got all those new seasons to watch, I just can’t help myself to stop. I never care if I’ll get enough sleep or that I’m supposed to do something instead. I just want to get to the next episode and quick. My trigger happy fingers just can’t stop pressing the forward button. I would even download the plot or synopsis from whatever site- it’s my porn as you might have known.

I call it my substitute to an actual social interaction since definitely I have none. Ok prolly there is but it’s just not as intense as I hope it would be. I’m a drama king remember? Besides, I feel that my actual interaction is somewhat restricted. My family is miles away hence my addiction to Brothers and Sisters. And the show is an ideal. It is only now that I can reason as a mature person with my mom. It is only now that I think my sis and I are hanging out. Besides the interaction I have with my family is strictly out of fear. If only “bantay bata” was around that time surely my mom would have raised us differently. Only thing that spiced up our growing up was the adulterous relationship that both my parents had. And yeah, I almost forgot my darkest hour, to which even in this sacred blog of mine would not see print.

Not that my family is such a mess. I remember 3 years ago when my sister outed me to my mom. We were having lunch and the moment sis excused herself to go to the ladies room, my mother out of nowhere told me point blank that she knew eversince. About time was all I could say, it’s an expression of relief. Off course I could see in her eyes the disappointment, heaven knows the series of disappointments I have caused her but somehow I felt she was trying her best to tell me she understands and that she cares. That meant the world for me, though at that point I told myself that I don’t care about what others would say, but knowing that I have my family to show me some support is a big plus. I am now not talking to my mom. Kinda reminiscing of Kattie and Nora’s 3 months silent war. Just a whim on my part, too childish actually. Maybe I’m trying to oblige her to take responsibility of something I might have wanted years ago. Thing is, I might be making it as an excuse not to be around. Maybe like Kattie, I would want to find myself.

Courtesy Flush

2008-01-03T00:27:00.002+08:00

Too much episode of House season 4 had kicked my adrenalin to new heights, coupled by the fact that I don’t have too much drama because of the space I am enjoying now. Or maybe it’s the effect of the fung shei now taking its toll, whatever it was, I was able to finish most of my planning and projections to have me all geared up and set for the coming year.

Since I am drama less, work had provided me an opportunity to make one. I had been putting up with all the adjustment since last May since I wanted to build up on whatever pieces left for me to build on. Knowing full well I have done good if not probably great of taking over the reins, I got the cue to start fixing up the loose ends. The timing was impeccable since most works were done. It happened instantly. I have several issues regarding work ethics and when one of my staffs snapped at me I immediately called up for a staff meeting and addressed those issues. In essence I just told them that I am boss, the adjustment was a courtesy flush!

Unconsciously Complaining

2008-01-02T23:58:00.002+08:00

It feels nice to have a new surrounding, new places to go to, new dining experience. I just feel so alive knowing I could just walk around the corner and purchase the dvd’s of my favorite shows, have my dirty clothes laundered without hassles and enjoy a hearty serving of siomai sa tisa with puso and finishing it off with biko and a hot choco even though it’s 3 in the morning. But being in a place like this would bring out one’s desire to share it with a special someone. If you had known that I have a partner, it would strike you as if I’m frustrated. Unconsciously complaining, perhaps?

I had a bad Christmas. Remember how my being a drama king always put things on the edge, well it happened again. Am I to blame, maybe partly? I believe that I’m just responding to what has been thrown at me. Didn’t Newton have a law for it? I think it was the law of interaction wherein every action has an equal or opposite reaction. Well I’m just reacting with the flare of a true diva! Stop smirking! You’re making it look like I enjoy being a bitch! If only I have not claimed that I have borderline personality disorder then maybe I could have it as a defense.

As if lady luck was watching and actually cares about me, Sherwin a.k.a Boo showed up at the resto and demanded I joined him for dinner. If I haven’t known better, he just showed up because everyone who might give a damn about whatever crap he wants to dish out isn’t around. So I didn’t join him. Nope, I’m not bitching, just that I was busy. I was at work and I do work you know. He texted me that he’s done and that he’s going ahead.(side note: my editor doesn’t recognize the word texted as a verb so apparently I have a fragmented sentence) I decided what the heck. I went down and pretended I care. Ok that was I lie. I actually cared. He’s my friend after all.

I forgot the crap he was eagerly sharing with me and it came to the point that Boo actually asked about how things were going with me and my Hubz. No point of lying so I told him what happened. He apparently has no words of wisdom to share but an episode of Will and Grace that seemed to suffice. It makes sense so I picked up my phone and texted (hehehe another fragment sentence) Hubz. I think it’s a flaw of mine to easily give up and actually think that reality is all that. Long story short, we haven’t ‘till now had the chance to talk. Hubz in Singapore till the 4th and I find it more serene not to reply to his text messages. I am peaceful with the space. I am able to focus more on what I need to do, at work, with my life. For once I felt the absence of drama suits me better. Wait, I think I have mirror syndrome with watching too much House. Time to switch to Ugly Betty. I want to have my dose of Whilamina! Yippee! Project Runway 4 is at youtube!

At The End of the Day

2007-12-29T16:28:00.001+08:00

If not for my last year’s post, I think I wouldn’t have the inspiration to write yet another entry. I really have to say that I have missed writing witty posts. Nowadays its work and nothing else. That off course was a lie, I have my Ika and DVD’s to make my hands full, not to discount my constant bickering with Hubz.

After my boss’ visit and as per advice of the Feng Shui Master, we need to move out of our old apartment at Lahug. Apparently several had died there and their negative energies were something we don’t need in our lives. We have to be quick with the moving out since Rhoda was on her 1st month which means she’s not suppose to be moving a lot once she reached her first semester.

As desperate as we were because budget was also a freaking factor, I was able to find one without all that attachment when you sign a rent contract. The catch was it was an hour ride from our usual 15minutes travel. The upside for me was, Ika has a lot of ground to please her heart’s desire. Also, Richard had space for all his fighting cock, yup no pun intended there with the cock.

I looked harassed though during the first week. Who wouldn’t be? It was a mixture of emotional and physical distress brought about by work related stress and the people around me who I could just not figure. The girls didn’t like the idea of transferring that far, my boss was constantly monitoring our progress and me being the equalizer to most decisions. I told them I want it done and over with so that I can focus on the upcoming events at work.

I like to work fast, so we transferred as soon as our last contract expires. Took us about a day to move out but it really burned out most of my mojo. To make things tough was the number of booked parties and function at work. I wanted to make things work out since this was my first time solely managing everything so there’s another tough break for me. I’m relief though that we were able to breeze through with just minor set-backs which were still manageable. The downside was that I sacrificed my time. I haven’t had a decent vacation for a year now. The last I had one was November last year. I miss Batangas and Manila. I miss my mom, my sis and pop. I miss Lorenz, Pampy and Jenny.

At least Ika is enjoying her long walks and though at the end of each walk she’d all be dirty and messy, the enjoyment comes that after a days work, I have Ika to come home to and just be happy.

Fat Chance!

2007-11-18T22:50:00.000+08:00

I just realized that I haven’t had any decent post since October. I just couldn’t get myself to sit down and scribble something. Writing is usually one anti-stress regimen of mine and I’ve just realized that I have allowed myself unknowingly to be maxed out. What I was lacking is motivation and perhaps some inspiration. Surely I was missing the muses. Even spending time with my better half was cut short because we were both preoccupied. To make matters worst, I had no time to go to the gym and even play badminton regularly. The only thing decent with me is that I am constantly updated by any Naruto spoilers.

As if Lady Luck was smiling at me, my boss flew over to check up on us. Not that I didn’t appreciate the fact that she remembered us, it’s just that it has been long overdue. Kinda got used to being autonomous but hey, I do appreciate that at least I can vent out something. She brought along a Feng Sui master, let’s just take my boss’ word for it.

“Nothing wrong with some precautions” or something to that effect was my boss’ comment. From there on I didn’t make any comments. I’m open to such experience, so bring it on!

Since it was just an overnight stay, I presented my status report for the time being while touring the master around to make his study of the place. In between my boss will ask me of something since the master only speaks Cantonese. Anyhow, it was really weird since I think of Feng Sui as an art to harmonize a place by means of placement but somehow this old man is doing some reading of people, huh!

After an hour of gathering all the key people the master was able to predict that one of my colleagues is pregnant, the other one has his dead mother as his guide and that one close relative of another colleague of mine will die. Talk about weird!

As for me, he told me that I’ll be tying the knot by next year! Yeah fat chance. Later while having dinner, he told my boss that he sensed that I could do both girls and boys. That was hilarious!

Now if only I could do this one! ehehehe

Gloomy

2007-10-23T01:16:00.001+08:00

It was a usual Monday for me. I was working the whole day since I gave my staffs the day’s rest. I was doing my usual stuff when I happen to pass by and recognized Carlo on TV. I only happen to catch the last portion and I assumed it has to do something with the Glorieta 2 explosion. I tried to ask around if they were able to see what the interview was all about, no one knows. I was able to catch the said interview over at the late night news. I was shocked. I felt terrible. Here I was miles away in Cebu and the tragedy that happened had just became concrete for me. It was no passing matter. This was real!

I am posting the letter Carlo sent tru egroups.

Good day everyone,

I wish I were writing under
different circumstances.I would like to inform you that my wife Leslie Cruz was
part of the casualties in the Glorietta 2 Mall bombing in Makati City,
Philippines. She was supposed to have a minor out patient surgery at Makati
Medical Center at 230pm.I had taken a leave from work to accompany her there. We dropped off our daughter, Amber, at my parents place in QC to baby-sit at around 10am. We then proceeded to Makati and was there at 1230pm. Since she had been fasting in preparation for her procedure, she wanted to move around and listen
to some music while I grabbed a bite to eat.
We parked at the basement of Park Square 2, and headed for the Glorietta 2 entrance. We parted at the top of the escalator, she turned right towards Filbar's while I went left towards the restaurants. That was the last time I would see her. Around 120pm, she had called me so that we can meet at the Glorietta 2 exit just in time to make her appointment nt. As I made my way there from Glorietta 1 through the connecting hallways, and was about to turn the corner, I heard 2 deep thumps and the shock-wave from the blast hit me. At that moment my heart dropped as I knew that the origin of the blast came from the same place where we were supposed to meet. I tried getting to where my wife was, but the dust was too much and it was
as if I was staring at a white wall. I still tried to convince myself that she
was able to make it out, and that after ringing her mobile without a response
only meant that she dropped it in the confusion . After 6 hours of searching
from Makati Med. to Ospital ng Makati, the blast site, and back again to MMC -
with the help of all the people I could get hold of, that I was able to get
confirmation in what the state of my wife was. My Dad and Uncle signaled me in
from the ER of MMC. My Uncle (who's a doctor) asked me to describe Leslie's appe
arance to another group of doctors. I saw in the eyes of one that the
description made sense. Instead of confirming it to me, they huddled together,
then brought me to a small examination room. It was only through a digital
camera that I was able to confirm (and deny) that she was indeed gone.
I have so many regrets. I should have met her sooner. I should have ran instead of a brisk walk. I should have not chose to park where I did. I should have braved the dust and went in the blast site. I should have ...
Today's the 4th day. It is still terribly difficult to breathe, let alone wake up realizing that your source of strength, your best friend doesn't lie beside you on your bed. That my deepest worry is when Amber starts asking for her Mama. I am glad that Amber's too young to understand the loss and pain. In time I would like to tell her the details of how her mother died, but more importantly I would like to raise her as how her mother lived – a loving person, strong willed, decisive, caring, and nurturing .
She has always cared for her family and friends, and sacrificed her career for
being a full time mom and home maker.As with all couples we had our ups and
downs - none of which I regret not going through. The sweet is never as sweet
without the sour. For almost 4 years of marriage, we've finally hit our balance
in life only to be taken away in an instant.

I have no regrets about our marriage. She has loved me and Amber beyond her capacity. I will always love her.It is my first time to write to egroup as I've lurked and watched emails being sent to and fro. All I want now is that for each of the
couples here is to cherish each moment that we spend with our loved ones. Pretty
simple to say, very easy to take for granted.

Thank you all for the prayers.
I would still like to ask you to please include Leslie in them until her 40th
day so that the path to God's kingdom is well lit and she is no longer in the
dark.

Fender Bender

2007-09-14T11:04:00.001+08:00

Been a while since I got a chance to sit down and try to compose something for my blog. I cherish the times when I had so much time to spare, thus updating my writing and actually have a stress free time. You ask me now it’s totally different! I’m totally full to the brim.

Anyways, I’ve been working at irregular hours and at almost unholy length than normal just to make sure everything at work would run smoothly. Right, greater responsibility, same compensation. Sometimes I just think of quitting my job and just work on those call centers, almost the same compensation but less responsibility if you ask me. So having this irregular schedule, try as I might, I make it a point to set aside some distressing activity to keep me sane.

Well there’s the usual badminton every Tuesdays and Thursdays. The last couple of weeks had been worst. Most guys who plays were either busy or just not in the mood to hit some balls. It’s almost a month now since our last game. There were several invitations to play elsewhere but I find it too troublesome. First the venues were far and the schedule doesn’t agree with me. Good thing I got to smash some when Chard agreed to play with me last Sunday. Though we had a terrible fight, hubz was also there to play. Though I’m used to having 2 days of play, my Sunday game beats having none at all.

Another of my stress buster is going to the gym. But lately, trainers from the gym are becoming annoying to the point that I feel harassed by their non-stop pestering on when I’ll sign up to be trained. After the whole fiasco with Joel, my previous trainer I was very well disappointed. Joel was one hell of a fitness trainer. He knows what I want and he delivers. Problem was the gym has this quota for all trainers and thus happened the inevitable. He was sacked because I felt he was pressured to do stuffs like having us signed on attendance sheet for our future sessions so as to have his monthly quota. I obliged because he promised to have that session rescheduled for another time. It’s my second training package with him, first was 12 sessions with 3 additional and the second one was 25 session plus 5 which cost me a fortune. After the 10th session Joel disappears, apparently because he was not able to make the cut. I had to slack for a week and then I was transferred to Howel, who by the way is as boring as hell. The exact opposite. Just my luck. Had to bear with him for the remainder of my sessions without any improvements on my side. What a waste of money. And he still didn’t get the message.
Tried to terminate my membership but was persuaded to just freeze it for the meantime. I’m going to give it another go this October. Hopefully it goes well. I plan to tone down for our planed trip to Boracay this all saints day.

For the most part it’s going to the day spas and having my favorite whole body massage. If I can I have it once a week. It’s really soothing, even studies suggest it as a very good way to distress. Indeed! What’s more distressing is enjoying it together with you special someone.

Also, writing for me is a way of release. I’m sure glad that I’ve got this Sunday to scribe some random thoughts. Ahhhh! Refreshing. A little deep in the pool would certainly help destress.

Naruto Tid Bits

2007-09-02T20:00:00.000+08:00

Porn and Spoilers

2007-08-26T03:42:00.001+08:00

Sunday was bliss. I was alone most of the day. I decided that my my being stupid was not worth it so I made amends and I am with high hopes that it will stay that way. I’m sure I had pulled the last string so it’s definitely going to be a while before I do something stupid. I’m blessed to have a partner that is willing to take that walk with me. And that’s what makes this Sunday’s bliss. Well the scallops at Kaona Grill were the cherry on top!

Mondays is always manic. Started it early and by afternoon I felt like I need to sit down and just chat away. Fortunately Sherwin dropped by and with his ever reliable I-pod had me viewed Shippuden 25 – “Three Minutes of Life and Death”. I wasn’t able to see it with Hubz since I was so stupid. I’ve been updated with how Shippuden fare, thanks to all the spoilers and Sherwin would just be as furious as ever because I’m always getting ahead. Spoilers for me are like porn, after seeing it, you are just too hot for the real thing. Really, nothing spoiled there, right? If anything, it had made me wanting.

One irritatingly funny thing about boo is how he tend to forget our discussion, for most I have made all the breakthrough and in latter discussions that he’ll be having with his Naruto guy, he would seem to have all the inside scoop that I have obligingly done. Nonetheless it is such moment like this that I’m appreciative that I have a good buddy whom I can be crazy with. Kinda reminiscing my time with Erwin wherein we’ll have abundant competitive but healthy discussions about almost anything about almost everything. Even to the point that we just has to stand our ground inspite of staggering facts. It cost me treating him for lunch all our third year in high school. But looking back, I still find it cool. Yeah, hubz is a little weary of our closeness but it’s the same thing that I could say about his Iris. Yeah my hubz have a Grace. As in Grace Adler.

Tuesday was the usual badminton night. Only a handful of us were present. Tita Carms, our hostess was out of town. But she made reservation so we can play without her. Play has been somewhat restricted. Maybe most of them were tired. Good thing though that I got to play with other players. In a way I was able to hit some good returns albeit a little short to my gusto.

Wednesday I got to try something new. It was a choice between movies or playing bowling. Been a while since I went bowling, I think that was still in college so I told hubz that it’s going to be bowling night. One thing I’m very good at is form, I am a form freak. I got to intimidate a lot because of my good form. From my hubby’s stories it seems he’s good at it. It was a draw though. We both won two games each and decided to continue it some other time. At least it’s something both of us would be looking forward to. Ok, I was leading when it was about time.

I got a friendster message from Tess Thursday. Last I’ve heard from her was through my ex-best friend Topong. I’m very fond of her way back in high school. Even got a crush on her. It was a casual correspondence, geesh it made me think about high school all over again.

Pareng Ron called up to tell me my inaanak was dropping by. Sheila was in town to attend to Gabbie's parents day. Good thing my inaanak got her mom's good look.

Weekend was toxic! It spells WORK for me. I envy those guys who could go out and let their hair down because it’s suppose to be their time to unwind from the week’s hard work. I might sound I’m complaining but I am resigned with the realization that it’s how the universe is teaching me patience and humility. You guys should be thankful to people like us who provides venue for you to unwind and even get a little carried away and just be crazy! Now if this night could just end so I can dream of my little Naruto theories. Sherwin did mention that my eyes were sparkling with excitement! Got to get hold of my porn! But I’m going to see it with my hubz!

There Is Just No Easy Way

2007-08-18T12:31:00.000+08:00

It was desperation, greed and envy. Why can’t I have what my contemporaries are having? Again the running in circles makes me wanna puke!

Subscribing to something as vague as fate has allowed me exploit unchartered areas in my life to which I consciously ignore just to avoid confronting my reality. It’s a symphony of lies I have succumb to as a means of coping up!

I JUST HAVE HAD IT!

I am unstable. I get tick off with just about anything that I have no control of. And it’s insane! I am hopelessly emphatic but ruthlessly cold hearted. It’s when I am this ironic that I am afraid. I just need to put a stop to it before it gets worst.

As I try to put perspective to my life, I know I have made decisions that suit my comfort. I am not denying I hate pain, but the results of most of what I do hurt me.

It was too early for me to love. I was burned and I was not fully healed. I gave my self a sabbatical leave but I lost patience. Funny since life has always been teaching me to be patient and now this! It is about me and I have been unfair. I need to settle this issue of me being unstable.

I don’t have any answers now. I do these things and then realize I’m out of control. My impulsiveness, my impatience, my greed, my lack of wisdom among other things prompts me to do things which I am now regretting.

I want to be healed! This is my answer for now!

Negative / Non-Reactive

2007-08-08T22:38:00.001+08:00

For the past 3 years I've been fortunate to have someone do my executive blood work for free. For the first two it's all thanks to Levi. I remember when he was cautious during our first month together and insisted that I'd be tested. Since it's free I said what the heck but I had my reservations at first since I'm out of control most of the time. I remember it was quick, he was quite light handed and it really didn't hurt. What has been worst was the waiting. I was calm though. Maybe because I was ready to accept my fate. The moment I heard from him and saw the result which was all good, I made a conscious decision to be more careful with my health and practice safe sex.

It was a year ago and I haven't tested myself again and inspite of my best intention to be safe, I know I had my share of foolishness because I was so horny. I was determined to get through with it because I want to be fair with my partner. Fortunately, I'm clean. And I plan to keep it that way from now on.

Of Hallows and Horcruxes

2007-07-30T20:08:00.000+08:00

Seems as though my eyes would gouged by themselves and my neck has been a bitch acting up the same time but for all its worth, I had finished reading “The Deathly Hallows” and in record time. Two weeks for “The Order of the Phoenix”, the first Harry Potter book I ever read- a week and a half for “The Half-Blood Prince” and six glorious days for the latest installment. Something about wanting to reach the end and wanting for it to last as long as deemed possible. Alas, realization seized me and it was indeed the ending- a fitting one at that if I may add.

So many plots and as intricate as it may seemed I could do nothing but admire how Ms Rowling weaved a wonderful masterpiece, one that had given me sleepless nights and goosebumps- but hey, I’m not one to complain. Even my hubz didn’t, because I was impatient to have the book as it was released last week. I did tell him I hate surprises, something which I think he learned when he realized I had gotten myself an advance copy (Scholastic) as against his wish to surprise me with one (Bloombury). We ended having two copies instead.

There was this leak weeks before the scheduled released and I was one of those willing to be spoiled. Who got to live? How about all the interesting stuff that had left my imagination wild and my curiosity willing to try, even the dark arts if it could shed some light to my own anguish and impatience?

I couldn’t believe Fred died. After George had his ear severed Sectusumpra’s way, I hoped it just resolved the issue of identifying the twins. Oh the irony, of Percy coming to his senses and of Fred’s demise. I was shedding tears asking why the Weasley’s couldn’t be the family that they were.

And Rita Skeeter! That bitch! Had known her from the movie and it was an unremarkable characterization. But in this final book and with the skilled writing of Ms Rowling, I genuinely loathed her!

Everything for me was finely woven. It was dark rich chocolate cake with hot steaming mocha! The loophole of Dumbledore having James cloak after the Potter’s murder, the heated arguments of Snape and Dumbledore at the Forbidden Forrest, the mysterious R.A.B., an explanation of the near omniscient Dumbledore, the uncharacteristic pleading of Dumbledore to Snape, Snapes contempt of Harry and his double agent characterization, the life-debt of Wormtail and that scary silver hand, the gleam of triumph on Dumbledore’s face upon hearing Voldermort used Harry’s blood to restore his body- and I could go on and on! And yeah, why there were speculations that Harry would be having another pet when Hedwig and Buckbeak were there!

And the suspense, I know it was prudent to enjoy every chapter but I would just not have it. I have to exert more effort in knowing what happens next! I’m sure I’ll be reading it over and over again.

The intricacies! It was chess by grandmasters. I could only be awed at the research and the resources and wit of Ms Rowling. It was never mediocre. It is an exquisite work of art! I love it!

Cautious and Carefree

2007-07-21T14:04:00.000+08:00

Been a month since I've found my way back to love and I’ve been cautious and carefree at the same time. Love is like that, well at least for me, uhhhh the irony. Come to think of it, I have given my love life too much salt so to speak. I’ve experienced both extremes, i.e. of both joy and pain, ironic I’m telling you.

I remember from one sentimental discussion that as humans, we are wired with fear and therefore reason. It really doesn’t make sense up until I let my fear take the better of me. Just barely a week and I’m hopeless as my fear bares it ugly face in front of my beloved. I was even confused myself. Why do I always do that? I used to say it was always a trial of sort for me. It’s a test hoping that my beloved could look past my paranoia and just sees me as I am, a person that just needed to feel that I belong. In part that is true but I became obsessed with pain because it allows me to appreciate that I am able to feel. Yeah I’m a sadist.

With all the heart ache I should have known better, but I am first to admit that I might have been impulsive or arrogant, nahhh I was preachy when I tell people that I know better. I’ve done it again. And I conceed that it gives me pleasure, weird and absurd as it is. I would torture my beloved with my paranoia and prolly break his heart. Again I’m certain I'd be running in circles until I'm exhausted. But I would never loose hope that he'll stood up for me though and would knock some sense to my frigid heart. He'll breathe his loving breath that would make my heart beat once again.

I am still cautious, old habits and you know what they say about that! Nonetheless, I am loving once again. Guess I care less if people would still call me a whore. Hehehe, I just love that line and it’s entirely untrue! Still every moment spend now with my beloved, every turn that both of us make, makes my reason for beaming more significant and true.
Ttebayo!

Stupefy!

2007-07-13T11:39:00.000+08:00

Got our tickets last Sunday knowing full well that that there would be limited seats available. I quickly bought 3 tickets for the last full show on Wednesday. I wouldn’t miss the first showing for the world. It’s the first Harry Potter book I read, something good that came out from a previous association. It’s kinda memorable coz I got to share it now with Philip along with his good friend Iris. I got addicted with the Potter series to the point that I’ve researched all the spells and memorized it from ACCIO to WINGARDIAN LEVIOSA.

Ok how would I come up with the review? It’s mixed really. Having read the book, I have high expectations for the film adaptation. The screenplay by Michael Goldenberg wasn’t the best I think he could come up with. Now I understand how many X-Men fanatic wanted to kill themselves because of how the film was made. But with all partiality, the screenplay bodes well with the visuals. That was actually the assessment of Freemont when I got to ask him during our usual badminton game of how he enjoyed the latest installment. But seeing how Transformers was put into film, I must say I’m not that impressed with The Order’s cinematography. There the comparison again fails, Ms Rowling’s vivid description in the book was way better. I remember telling my ex how I hated their execution of the fireplace scene between Sirius and Harry on The Goblet of Fire. At least they rectified it now but still I was hoping I could see Umbridge sweeping her fat hands to get hold of Sirius. One scene that I was hoping to see was the “tarayan” moment of Dolores and Minerva. I laughed out loud when they were arguing over at the stairs and seeing how Dolores has to make a step to be on the same length as Minerva. Again, much better in the book. Maybe that’s why I was laughing alone, duh! Philip was too tired to even react.

The brighter side was with the acting though. I was kinda wondering how they would capture the titters that Dolores Umbridge is know for in the book. Turns out they captured it well. Imelda Staunton’s portrayal was flawless. Another notable performance that stands out for me was Emma Thompson. Yup, you read it right, Thompson, not Watson. I’ve read from somewhere how there is this certain something about her crying that you really couldn’t elucidate. As Sybil Trelawney, her plea to Umbridge to spare her position was something even I, a known boss from hell could not deny. And Umbridge response, uhhh, that bitch! As always, Dumbledore’s entrance was grand. As Auror and Order of the Phoenix member Kingsly pointed, he got style. Still I was hoping they had showcased Dumbledore’s powers, of how he stupefy two Auror’s, along with Dolores and Cornelius. At least that will make it more realistic to hold him in much esteem. And how the headmaster’s chamber denied acces to Dolores when she tried to hold her office there after Dumbledore dissapirated with Fawkes.

Well I liked how the battle at the Department of Mysteries was played out. The Death Eater’s black hollow effect vs the Order of Phoenix’s white silhouette. Classic! The battle between Dumbledore and Voldermort, again it could have been better. It gave me shivers when Dumbledore addressed Voldermort as Tom. Seein to much Naruto set’s up much expectations with fight scenes. The fire attack of Voldermort against the water attack of Dumbledore is remiscent of the Katon and Sauiton No Jutsu! Hahaha. I’m mixing it all up! And the genjutsu attack of Voldermort, hehehe what I meant was the ligilemens spell, was fantastic.

Finally!

2007-07-11T00:05:00.000+08:00

I did say that I’ll go on a sabbatical, on love that is. Guess I’ve been good enough to have an early Christmas present. Well if that’s what fate decided for me, being a mere mortal that I am, who am I to protest? Hahaha, me and my mumbo-jumbo hoopla!

I guess all the heart aches and dating paid off. I’m sure many will be surprised, though I’m certain that it would be split between those who’d be disappointed and pleased. Ttebayo!

Allow me to proceed then to my life’s wonderful turn of events! Again at any rate, I made this blog to please myself, so far I am pleased! Walang kokontra! Gumawa kayo ng sarili nyo para bongga!

I was watching an episode of FRIENDS wherein Chandler had the scare of his life when the grumpy old man living alone beneath Monica and Rachel’s apartment died. Not because he’s afraid of dead people but by thinking that he was living the same trail as the deceased grumpy old man. As pointed out by the girls, Chandler was being paranoid by doing what most men do, i.e. finding fault to all his dates. Chandler was resigned with the thought that he’ll grow old alone, just like the old man. Awwwww!

I never had the fascination as most of my contemporaries with the hit series. I remember Robert way back in college. He loves the series so much and I just couldn’t get him then. But being able to see it now in its entirety makes me appreciate it. Better late than never right?

It sure is a bliss to have friends like them. I miss my friends. I miss Jen, Lorenz and Albert. Haaayyy! But as always, God is great! At least now I have someone to love and to cherish. For a moment there I thought of growing old alone. I’m not even thinking of a possible heart ache. Been there done that! This time, we’ll make sure it works. Right Hubs?

Time To Take The Pin Out

2007-07-04T00:14:00.000+08:00

Patience is one virtue that eludes me ever since. Being an Arian with a borderline personality, doesn’t help either. So its prolly the reason why I was always on a rush. Heck I still am, but a little tappered though! May it be with the most simple of things as waiting for my turn in a line or to the most complex- say for example ummm falling in love?

Ok, I know I’m not that kind of a guy that subscribe to the notion of falling in love. I never believe in falling, I have never really allowed myself to be subjected to my emotions whenever something as phenomenal as love happens. Love for me is a choice, so falling is definitely not on my definition.

It’s a pin I have put on myself to help me hang on to whatever ideals I had believed in. This is an admission of my fault. At any rate I have never claimed that what I subscribe to has always been the best one.

But I did try. I have learned to live enjoying my present. And by doing so, I have learned that there might be such a thing as falling. And the best part of it, I am so ready for this!

This is what I mean by Every Moment Every Turn!

Dattebayo! Troublesome!

2007-06-24T12:06:00.000+08:00

This is a kiss and tell blog I’m telling you. Again, this is my domain and if by chance you find the contents herewith annoying do yourself a favor and SCRAM!

What has been going with me these last few days? Hmmmm! First I got addicted to watching too much dvd series. It started way way back when Ika’s dad lent me his friend’s copy of QAF! Told me then that there’s this certain character in the series that reminds him of me. I remember having sleepless nights watching it, well actually sleepless mornings since my work took up most of my nights and mind you I don’t work for a call center! Not that I have anything against call centers but its irritating when almost all people you talk to randomly or by chance always assume that I’m one of those call center guys! Mind you, sometimes I think of changing job and I’m definitely a good candidate to be a human cushion! Besides I heard the pay’s good and the responsibility is less. Well compared to what I’m doing now. One of these days I’d master the courage to do a Kevin Spacey ala American Beauty. I hope I got the title right. :) Whew! Talk about segue. Anyways, I was on my way to the gym late one evening when out of a whim I ended up having season 6 of Smallville, the entire season of Friends, Harry Potter 1 – 4 and 1 – 5 seasons of Naruto. Ok , special mention to Boo whom shares with me the passion of being a fanboy at time. As much as I want to avoid Naruto because Boo and a special someone of his thinks of it as their personal domain. He thinks of himself as Sasuke and the boy he fancy is Naruto! Honestly I find a certain mystery as to why several twenty-something guys seemed to relate intimately with the Anime. Been intrigued with something like that with the Vampire Chronicles but with an Anime about a ninja kid, either you’re kidding me or both of us share an unhappy childhood.

Turns out that neither was the case. Naruto was able to nurture the kid in me the moment I sat to watch its pilot episode. I remember watching Ninja the Wonder Boy before on ch 7 and which then run for a month I guess and I distinctively recall how I wanted to become a ninja during that time. To think of it, I also wanted to be an astronaut, yeah also a Shaolin Buddhist monk and a tennis pro like McEnroe.

Naruto! Here is a mischievous boy, irritatingly noisy in short – PASAWAY! I’m telling myself that I’d give it up besides its difficult focusing on the subtitle and to actually watch the show. Only thing I could understand was "arigato". Told myself, what the heck, it’s early and its either Naruto or another re-run of House. I’m way over the top with watching House M.D. I’m watching House everyday to a point where I’d be preoccupied with it the whole day. I needed something light, something in the line of Avatar. It takes getting used to. Somewhat before the pilot reaches its end, I was able to realize the reason behind Naruto’s irritatingly noisy façade. Something I believe every loner like me would understand.

Anyways, I just have to know what happens next. Remembered the last time Boo and I talked, I hate it when he’s so stubborn listening to my research, he calls it cheating when I fast forward the disc and do some internet reading. Anyways, I got to personally internalize the Anime and got to know them intimately.

I’m a sucker for Akamaru! My dog affinity obviously! I know Ika would fancy him too. Also I’m a Shikamaru fan. I like my man cunning!

The social framework by which the characters were allowed to interact was the dynamic factor that brought out the balance of drama, tragedy and comedy in the series. It’s soap for crying out loud! A soap that macho guys like us could relate and actually get away with even though we’d shed a tear occasionally. Come on don’t tell me you weren’t crying when Suratobi died because of that wrench Orochimaru? Hah! See I told you it’s a freaking soap!

Time Out

2007-06-15T00:10:00.000+08:00

Good thing I have joined the Wonder Woman Group at Yahoo and was able to see these fantastic images of my beloved Diana duking it out with Kal-El. Might have been inspired by the Sacrifice art. I'm not really into sculpture miniture or not, I just like to read Diana's adventure but this piece of work is really spectacular. Most notable that Diana is the one on top :)

The other one is the cover of Amazon Attack #3. From the looks of it good old Cassie and Kara are rallying alongside their Amazon sisters, hmmm interesting. Really haven't had the opportunity to read about it, only spoilers so I guess enjoying this cover will suffice for the meantime.

Pano Nga Ba?

2007-06-07T01:22:00.000+08:00

It was a crazy day having less than 3 hours sleep and dealing with work related problems left and right. Having had to endure more than 12 hours on the job and talking to suppliers, trainees and my bosses about almost everything made me decide I needed to get away if only to preserve my sanity. I’m in a way flabbergasted on how I was able to fetch a new staff from Manila to having my laundry delivered to the shop and meeting up with Sherwin half way from the laundry shop and him paying his Sun Cell due to grab an “Ice Craze” and talk about Naruto and Bleach over the usual salutations and mandatory “how are you?”. Come to think I was also able to speak with Viel early that morning while he was between classes and listened to my Bu after a while since our lives had become toxic. Funny was as I simultaneously fired up my Sun text message for the day I mixed up my endearments referring to Sherwin as Bu which is Viel’s and his was Boo. Anyways, after Sherwin corrected me, I got the message that I’m prone to encounter glitches for the day. Yeah, after 2 weeks of less sleep and prolong work hours with my mind firing full to the brim, I’m sure it’s going to take its toll.

It doesn’t help also when a certain someone from your past that has find its way to your now is trying to cause a maelstrom of distraught about his inner paranoia and it doesn’t also help that the you being a friend would be taken against you. Good thing I can shrug it off and pay no attention to it. Yeah, I did pray to St. Jude about it so that he knows.

So I decided to storm the cinema and catch the last full show of the latest Regine flick. Ok I’m a fanboy. Mock me if you want but I’m self confess sucker of her antics. Ok ok, also of her “birit” abilities. And yes, here I go again overdoing myself. I remembered I haven’t had any decent meal so I asked the kitchen to prepare my wheat bread as take out. I grabbed a four bagger sour cream pop-corn with large Mountain Dew and got myself a ticket for the last full show. I so miss doing this. ALONE! Treating my self to watching a feel good flick and engaging my appetite with sour cream pop-corn is tantamount to a good dose of whatever feel good pill you may want to pop on a lousy day. It takes getting used to off course sitting alone in the cinema when you were surrounded by couples, straight and gay ones. But to hell I care. I’m just hoping my phone won’t ring since I gave instruction to Harold to call me anytime my presence is needed at work.

The combination of wheat bread, soda and pop-corn loosened me up and I was able to relax just in time for the “Lupang Hinirang”! “Geeser”! I hope this film would turn out cheesy so I’ll have to settle with something less to ponder and be able to brush it off as trivial and get on with the rest of my remaining time at work.

Not really a big fan of Piolo.
Ok, he’s ruggedly handsome.
Ok, he can act.
Ok, there seemed to be chemistry with Regine. The love scene reminded me of Enis and wife on Brokeback.... hehehe!
Ok, that was a nice bod. And I really don't know what's Regine's obsession with butterflies!
My Goddesses, I wanna be like him. I mean his character as Lance that is. And to think I’m dropping the calls of Howell, my personal trainer at the gym. Got to return his call first thing tomorrow and pay that another session.

Maybe I should get my self a girl. Someone like Marty, Regines character who is willing to love at all cost. Nahhh, maybe I should try get my façade reflect my heart so I won’t get the undesirables and be branded a slut and having nasty rumours circulated that I have STD, worst HIV! Haaaaayyyyy! Tell me Pano nga kaya?

Could Have Would Have Should Have

2007-06-02T23:02:00.000+08:00

In a matter of two weeks I had assume leadership of the Cebu branch. It could have been the moment I was waiting for except it was given to me riddled with all the inherent problems. I believe I can do the job and being the apprentice for the longest time had prepared me for this undertaking. It would have been best if I had taken it earlier but I’m thinking that everything that had happened to me was sort of a preparation for things I am meant to tackle in the now.

I went into the battle field seeing how the dust from the fighting had impaired my vision. I planned my move cunningly retreating when I have to. And now that the dust had settled, I have the advantage of a good vista. With prayers, I am full of hope that everything will be as it should have been.

I Am Queen!

2007-05-26T21:03:00.000+08:00

Emet, my most loyal subject to which I highly favor his style is so transparent as a person, well at least for me, his most royal highness. I think it has been a while since my faithful subject had someone that usually makes him busy to the point that my regal needs are sometimes neglected. But I make sure he realize the folly of his ways.

When I was entrusted to him I realized in an instance that I have acquired the most loyal subject a queen of my stature demands. I was never mistaken.

I was instantly his number one priority. At least my subject knows what's best for him. He hails whenever he is in my presence, such regal manner. Off course only the best for me, his high majesty Queen Ika.

As I was saying, I have grown accustomed to his every whim and he could not hide anything from me that I can't smell. Such is my knowledge of this man I fondly call my royal subject. He is like the father that I never had, such care, such compassion! But mind you, he knows where he stand and he keeps his distance, rather I keep my distance. Such is my regal upbringing.

As of late he has been giving me so much time and attention. Not that I'm complaining but I could sense that my subject has been recuperating from something that had befallen him. Heart matters! That is my best guess. And as her queen I wish him well. I'm sure even my princes Sushi will agree. As always, he has become more attentive of my needs to the point that I'm impressed because he is so pro-active. My subject has become a better man after his ordeal and I am pleased. Now if only he could find the one that is meant for him!

Ice Breaker

2007-05-25T01:42:00.000+08:00

It was several months ago so I really did not give it too much thought though I must admit it did stir some uncomfortable emotions in me. The timing was impeccable. Just got out from a heart ache so it was really weird. His name was David. All I know was that he was in between job at that time. He was in Miami when he called me. That was really weird. I remember I was supposed to cook something for lunch when I received his call. Out of no where he asked me if I would want to marry him. Seriously!

I was deep with work when out of nowhere I received a call whose number was not on my phone book. As hesitant as I was, I answered it and to my surprise it was David!

I was shocked but at the same time a little pleased but only with the guffaws that I made because I find it funny. We spoke, the same nonsense talk as before but there was this feeling that I know somehow, part if not entirely it was a sincere talk. Still, as much as I am into romantic stories, having my heart broken for the nth time had made me practical and realistic.

Nonetheless I needed that if only for the smile that it had brought to my face.

After the Dust had settled

2007-05-20T00:01:00.000+08:00

After the long wait and see, it was now final. I’m not about to go and rant about the details but suffice it to say that it’s done and over with. Still, with most ending, it’s just signal a new beginning. Well at lest for me that is. That would be my story now. But no fret, I know myself and I am ready for this. Onwards to making great memories!

Nuff Said!

2007-05-14T00:13:00.000+08:00

Had this fast lane thingie going again. What a ride! It was not the same, I’m telling you. It’s the 3 in my age, gets some getting used to. Maybe it’s the pull of the place, very laid back. At any rate I had to thank my loose bowel movement that put me still. Ewwww! Told you I’m that appreciative.

Realized that I might get misunderstood with my intentions when all I wanted to do was to give it more time to bloom. Yeah, fools do rush in. Thought that my 3 would help me be more broad but in a sense, I know I have given my all. I’m happy.

I do my thing and you do your thing.
I am not in this world to live up to your expectations,
And you are not in this world to live up to mine.
You are you, and I am I, and if by chance we find each other, it's beautiful.
If not, it can't be helped.
(Fritz Perls, 1969)

Nuff said. Saw Spidey 3 and it was good. Saw the trailer of Order of the Phoenix and several good films I intend to see, hopefully with a special someone. Finished House, thanks Cue! Peter Parker (not his real name ) split up with his lover. Had a sensual massage, downed by lbm, got between the devil and the deep blue sea. missed badminton. Geesh! I need to hit something hard, and fast- nahhh! Nothing a good old hot green tea can fix.

Mother Mother

2007-05-13T10:51:00.000+08:00

My dedication to my mom and to all moms out there!

Happiness VS Meaning

2007-05-06T01:41:00.000+08:00

“What do you mean by ‘just turned single’?” Apparently whoever asked me this wanted to be clear. What a lame pick-up line! Annoyed as I was, I still managed to return a grin. Though I must admit it made me pause and re asses everything.

It’s been a while so the clause “just turned single” is so over. I’m thinking it’s the not getting used to being single that’s why I cling to such description. Not so lame after all.

It’s the longest I ever stayed single. Since that fateful day that I decided I am for it, I have always tried to have someone, despite the distance. I was putting too much salt on it. Now, I feel liberated. Though my pillows would have been better if it was a warm body but come to think of it, I got my Ika with me.

Now I’m taking it one step at a time. I’m trying to savor my present, no rush. I have always tried to find meaning. This time I want to be happy. It’s the enlightenment I got from what Mr. Linderman told Nathan Petreli. “A man of happiness lives in the present while a man of meaning dwells in the past and is oblivious of the future” – something to that effect, what am I? A Freak?

Though the concept of dating is new to me, I still think it’s the best way to go if you want to build that which is profound. Problem with people like us is when there’s this spark, the most common retort would be why prolong it? Yeah why prolong the agony! I hope it’s not the case of my borderline personality. I could see Albert with a “I told you so” grin in the background.

You Don't Get To Call Me A Whore!

2007-04-28T02:36:00.001+08:00

A lot took place since my last blog and most of what became apparent was merely carry-over of previous events. I really appreciate having this blog. It keeps me honest and grateful that I am alive.

I’m sure my buddy Viel is enjoying his Bora time. I’m actually hoping he’d get his groove back in time for his 3rd Year in med school. My buddy had his share of heart ache. I think it’s the trend now because even Jude has his story to tell about heartbreak. Was telling them that “those that doesn’t destroy you make you stronger” crap! Thing is, having good friends beside you while you are with all earnestly fixing yourself helps A LOT! Me being a drama king would have hoped it turned out ala Grey’s Anatomy’s where I’d be Merideth telling Mcdreamy “you don’t got to call me a whore”! That would be my ultimate scene! Hayyyy! I know too much boob tube!

But I just can’t help it. I was supposed to raid Viel’s DVD collection. Since he’d be away there wouldn’t be anyone who has the persuasive prowess to drag me off my slack time. Since I was inspired by Grey, I was hoping I could salvage season 1 for which I remember Bu telling me that he has. But again to no avail. After getting some massage for which has became a twice a week indulgence, we were famished to the point that our better judgment was almost nil. We stopped at Andok’s and got a whole chicken. But no, it did not stop there. We have to get a liempo. “But what’s the use of having all this without rice to enjoy it?” Clouded our better judgment- I just told you that! To think Bu needs to stay lean within the bounds of a beach body! Nothing a good pair of sleeveless shirt could remedy, I heard him say. Anyways I was really hungry and I could burn those off, I still have 15 sessions left on my circuit training and I’m not in any near future have plans to flaunt my hard earned cuts. Hehehe!

Suffice it to say we part ways without me getting any DVD’s. We had a great night though. I did hear Bu say that Jude was texting non stop asking our whereabouts. True enough after a day I found out he was furious because we ignored him. Poor guy, but for the record it wasn’t intentional. Funny how I have to change my schedule at work that day cause it gave me time to actually be with Jude to listen to his ranting. I’m telling myself it’s my karma. So there we were, I listened to his musings, gave a no comment reply most of the time. I felt like the 1st gentleman on a senate inquiry! Geesh, the things I got to learn from him and I did post it here how I felt bad about a certain accusation that my friend hurled against me. Now the real story just unfolded, but again I remind my self that I just had paid my karma. I’m full circle now and I have found my peace. So this is the last of it. Whew!

I asked to be dropped at IT park where Q and I caped the night off. He brought me his copy of Heroes-the complete first season, seen episodes 1 to 13. He also has for me seasons 1 to 3 of House. Now that’s going to be a lot of incomplete sleep for me!

I almost forgot. Happy Chuva Birthday Raye!

So Are We Dead Now?

2007-04-20T23:55:00.000+08:00

I had my calendar set to remind me of my good friend’s birthday this 19th. I don’t know what happened, I forgot.
It’s the day after Lorenz’ birthday and if not for Albert, I would have forgotten about it!

“So does that mean we are DEAD?” Albert texted me back. To which my reply was “S#!+!”. I was quick to send an apt message with a belated message to Lorenz. Lorenz was quick to reply with “yeah late nga!”. And it’s not the bluntness of his response; something in the air spells sarcasm. I can’t blame him he did call me last week because it was my birthday.
I showed mamu the messages and in that instance I called Lorenz up. I muster all my charm and expressed how much I regretted not having remembered his special day.

In my defense, I was caught up with so many things. At work I have to confide to one of my collegues because I felt I would explode. I got to speak with Sherwin regarding my recent blog post concerning our status quo. Listened to Jude’s ranting and offered some consolation. Cleared the ground for Joaquin so we could get to know each other more. Got to get to know some acquaintances better while running the treadmill and waiting for my turn to play badminton. Cupping the night with a soothing body massage with Bu, it’s beginning to be a nightly habit I’m telling you. So you see, I was up to the brim.

“It’s the thought that counts!” Lorenz did remind me of that. One undeniable fact that we all hang-on to, whatever happens, these people will always be in our hearts.

Lorenz Happy 16th Birthday! :) (obviously I'm patronizing)

Genesis

2007-04-12T06:48:00.000+08:00

Second year in a row, I just stayed put at the staff house and took advantage of the day and put my feet up with delight. Besides, my laundry has piled up and my clothes needed ironing. The girls asked me if I could drive them to do the station of the cross, I oblige knowing there wouldn’t be much traffic. See I hate driving, but what the heck, I also wanted to do the station, one of those times I needed to reflect and observe the solemnity of the season.

In a way I was thankful because I got to have a breather and enable myself to play catch up. Ika was so thrilled to spend more time with me, though having Tiny around helped liven up her surrounding.

Been dealing with much lately and my current heart state is one that has always been on top of my list. Sure by nature I know I am a loner but having experienced the warmth of having someone by your side will always remind you of how good it felt and of what you are missing. Guess its human nature to want to feel that you belong.

Turning a year older had taper my temper and allowed me to take it leisurely thus giving me time to appreciate my journey. Not something I’m used to but I am beginning to value its worth. If there’s something I value the most now, it’s being honest!

Fools's Month

2007-04-04T18:41:00.000+08:00

Woke up with a crazy feelin in my head, it’s the second birthday bash I’ve been into this week and both times were the same, irritating hang-over.

April fool’s was Stan’s 31st, while the 3rd was Sherwin’s 27th. On the 11th it would be my 30th. I could still count several that’ll celebrate their birthday this month. There’s the twins, Lenny and Leah on the 12th, Frances and Aimee both share my birthdate. The queens Didi and Raye on the 14th and 27th respectively. Tita Chona on the 20th. Jego, my Godson on the 22. Whew, and these are just peeps that are genuinely close to me.

Looking back, I miss my youth, see I’ve been partying with much gusto this last week that I tend to reminisce my younger years where I just party without much of the worries. It’s the mystery of turning 30 I’m telling you. Last night as I sank along with the alcohol, I wanted so bad to escape my sanity and just do the things I used to do when I still fool around. It felt really good but I guess age tempers it with much sense of reality. Prolly more of responsibility. And it doesn’t help when feelings which were repressed taunts you. Sure I’m telling myself I'm all over Sherwin but my dark side just won’t subside. I know I might have drove him to madness when he saw me leaping to Ian’s car. Was hoping my being drunk would suffice as an excuse but I know better, well only that I know how to think fast. Then I'm hearing him in my head taunting me - "What's worst than a slut? A drunk slut!"

I feel that my little world is put to the test. My bud Paul thinks I forsook our friendship. I can’t blame him, neither am I guilty. He’ll snap out of it. I hope. I am just going to take things in stride, besides, I promised myself to live in the now. I’ve done my part.

I’m just glad I have a two days rest. It’s the holy week and I needed this time to steal some precious moments to get in touch with my spirituality. Will not be going anywhere, I'll just rest, at the house, prolly visit some churches and do the station of the cross. Been a whirlwind 29th year for me and I need to taper it off with the proper perspective.

Yeah, yeah, hifaluting and I'm kidding myself. Geezzzz!

Make Mine Spartans

2007-03-31T02:44:00.000+08:00

Never mind that Leonidas was masochism incarnate, Frank Miller made sure that I'll forget that mistake by empowering Queen Gorgo- why only a Spartan woman could give birth to a real Spartan man!

I was in high school once again, that's when my fascination with the mythos started. Nothing to venture beyond my daydreaming, nothing scholastic of that sort in my end, only a means for my imagination to run free. I hate Frank Miller for his exquisite imagination. Really, not that I was overwhelmed by the beautiful physique, rather it was my amassment seeing a flawlessly executed phalanx formation at work. Much has been told, with different variations about the account in Thermopylae, for sure I loved this rendition.

I never really cared for the Spartans. I'm more a lover of Athens. Young boys? Well let's just not quantify it with youth. And this romanticized movie adaptation is one I daresay I enjoyed.

Status Quo

2007-03-26T02:40:00.000+08:00

Playing by ear is a skill I have acquired with my line of work. And now, as I pulse what’s going to happen, I have accepted that whatever happens, the show must go on and that if need be, to step up and live the part of the understudy.

Characterization

2007-03-24T09:39:00.000+08:00

After getting hitched with Michael Scofield, I told myself I needed something light to complete my appetite. Sherwin was zealous to offer his Avatar: The Last Air Bender series. I’ve seen it before over at Nickolodeon and at first I thought it a little dragging. Besides, I have reservation because my latest ex had it as his favorite tv show. Nonetheless I gave it a try and I enjoyed the series so much.

As with Michael Scofield over at Prison Break, I got hooked with the series anti hero Prince Zoku. He was the main villain for book 1 but it was clear after book 2 that Zoku is more of a conflicted bitter youth than evil. Evil would be his sister, the devious Princes Azula with whom Sherwin has a thing for.

One thing I liked about Zoku was how his character unfolds before my very eyes. Here is a young prince banished because of his insubordination and forced to hunt the avatar to reclaim his lost honor. Through the course of his journey, he learned many things that defined him as a character. An anti-hero that mirrors that of the hero. As Aang learns about his destiny as the avatar, Zoku parallels that discovery and defines his character with much conflict and wanting. He is basically your bad boy, but deep within you know that he’s innately good. That’s why I’m rooting for him. Can’t wait to see Book 3.

All Is Fair In Love

2007-03-21T00:27:00.000+08:00

Still recovering from my sprained ankle I decided to cut-off on extraneous activities that would hamper my recovery. Stan did remind me of the R.I.C.E. treatment for my sprain hence the rest. I took the evening shift at work so I won’t get tempted to go out and party with my peeps. Like I have the luxury to do that anyways. It was a slow weekend for the bar as well but I got several text messages that kept me full throughout the night. First I got a message from someone who apparently got hold of my number through referral. Though it’s not the first time this happened, I usually treat everything with a grain of salt so I played along. We agreed to meet up. I only have an hour spare time to meet and fortunately it went well. Then I got another anonymous message. Turns out it was from the guy who referred me. After some lengthy exchanges of SMS I was able to fish what his friend has to say about me. Been a while since I got such a confidence boost. Needless to say it was all good. At least I know I still have it. Being single will make you question that. I know I’m charming but sometimes you just need to hear it from others. Well that sets my night. I felt the night would be smooth sailing all the way.

I texted several friends keeping tabs on their g-micks. They were on their usual hang-outs. Several like Winston was in Manila, Jaecer and Tatay were in Bora.

Off late I was blessed to have met some interesting acquaintances. And it’s touching if they’d remember you back in ways you don’t expect. Like how Viel would check out on how I’m doing or that Tatay Jesan would call all the way from Bora to keep me up to speed or how Stan would get a drink or two to make his presence felt.

I was most surprised when Parker (to not complicate things) confided in me something which he felt he was at a loss with. I always end up like this. I mean they would always say I seemed like a good guy and that they know that I am trustworthy. It’s my borderline personality disorder I’m telling you. Or was it my messianic tendency? Well anyways what else could I do? So here I was asking him of what’s bothering him. Actually I think I was up to no good that time, but that was just me, flirt galore. He told me that he’s involved with someone that I know and that it would make things complicated. I wish I could write it all here but suffice it to say I was not a secret keeper and you know how the spell works. Here I go again. First was mentoring Sherwin, now this. But really, I can’t fault those guys. How could you fault anyone of something that makes them happy? Yeah, yeah, there are people who could get hurt, tell it to them, I know I have. And I know how to envy others as well, thing that is bothering me with Sherwin, but that I think is for another blog. It’s the heart talking man and besides isn’t it that everything is supposed to be fair in love? Yeah even so, there would always be the feeling of betrayal and pain that goes along with it. I could just here Epi singing in the background..."what about me? what about what I need?"

I do recall a phase in mylife where it was all fudgy. I did say that we all have our truths. These truths makes us sleep. My friends are in this phase. They all believe their truths. One thing would be certain though, I would be there whenever they need a friend.

Badminton and Sprained Ankle

2007-03-17T01:17:00.000+08:00

Good thing I had my circuit training before heading to my usual badminton game last Tuesday. I sprained my ankle during the second game. I was supposed to hit a back row lob when I made a wrong turn and twisted my ankle. The moment I realized I had sprained my ankle, I dropped to the court and laid there lying on my chest. The sudden excruciating pain almost made me shout, I think I might have but I tried to restrain myself. The play was halted and I dragged myself on the sidelines and stayed there until the court attendant handed me a plastic bag full of ice.

Good thing I was surrounded by doctors and nurses who shouted their advice. They kept on playing, nothing to worry. It’s not like I had my entrails on the outside. After icing my ankle, Ricky came to my aide to help move me to a more convenient location. If I didn’t have prior stretching beforehand, I know my sprain would have been worse. People kept yelling if I was ok. I just gave them a smile and told them I was not. How could anyone who twisted his ankle be ok? People, really! Viel disappeared and to my surprise walked to me with his havianas. Sweet! Almost got me into tears knowing what a good friend I have. Really, now that’s touching. I was not able to play anymore which frustrates me because I was so pumped up to hit something hard that night.

I contend myself watching and chit chatting with people waiting for their turn to play. Fritz told me that maybe my sprain was a sign of some sort. I told him that I usually become better after an injury. When I was training for swimming I broke my front tooth after a time trial but after I had my dentist lasered my tooth back to perfection, I was able to set my personal best. I also sprained my ankle practicing quick attacks for volleyball but after healing I was able to add back row hit and running quicker in my arsenal of offense. I remember my first injury where I got to be good at once was when I drove my bike in a sewer and bruised my knees. After that I was able to bike well. I’m just excited to play as soon as possible, but I know I would have to skip next week if I want to recover well.

Patience is a virtue, one that I need to master and I think its one that I need to take into heart now that I’m almost recovering. Don’t want to be a fool to rush in, and I’m meaning it both rhetorically and figuratively.

Michael Scofield's my Man!

2007-03-09T07:23:00.001+08:00

I remember Ron asking me if I have seen “Prison Break” when I got to visit them last November. He knows I’m always updated and frankly that time, I have no taste for machismo theme series. Or so I thought. It was over my usual lunch with Sherwin that I came upon this series. Between Sherwin’s growing eye-bugs and my boredom of being single, I asked S what he has been up to lately. I thought it was his nightly gimmick with his buddies to my surprise it was not. Apparently his lack of sleep is from watching the series night after night after night. I told him I can relate having had read Harry Potter for a week will certainly do that. But no regrets!

After S discreetly handed me the contraband which he seemed excited to hand me over, I took it with a grain of salt and doubt it would be as satisfying as my Harry Potter affair. Alright, the first 3 episodes were controlled for even me to stop the player and hit the sack at 5 am. Nothing to make me jump up and down and forget I had just recently been single. Besides the week was full of happenings that I doubt I’ll have another chance to sit down and pop up the contraband. Hahaha, see I even use con parlance.

My week was jam packed. I have an event for Pocket Rocket for their client Level-Up and getting friendly with Jun, Red and Yuan in between my circuit training, badminton and Viel’s nightly craving for Hang-over’s sisig, which by the way doesn’t stand a fat chance against our very own recipe here at Ratsky’s (yeah call it patronizing but really, you should try it). I even have to vary my schedule because of set-up requirements by the event. Hence, rain check for watching 300 with my favorite bud Viel. But at the end of the day, I still have ample time to watch Michael Scofield flirt with Dr.Sara Tancredi.

It reminds me of George Clooney and J. Lo on “Out of Sight”. That for me is the steamiest love scene ever conceived. Man, this was the second best thing. Hmmm does that mean I’m bisexual or that I just have good taste? Hmmmm?

Calculating, that’s how I would describe “Prison Break”. Calculatingly good. I know they’ve used it for “Numbers” but really, it’s a no-contest. The math in this one if far more complex, hence more fun. Ok, ok! More entertaining, let’s not get carried away.
Now, it also is a plus having Wentworth Miller as Scofield. Controlled oppressive unflappable determination was how his review varied, but really, it’s the charisma of playing the irony that gets him so appealing. Well I’m talking about how I perceived it and this is my blog. Now move along if you feel otherwise. Anyways he is believable enough for me but I still could feel him. Naughty, and that too! :)

Ok, there were times that I would have to smirk with all his side glances. People with overly active minds would have noticed but then again Scofield is as mental as I am or was it just his way to show-off. Hell like it would pass for cool. Nahh, it was hot! I would say Miller is genius as Scofield. Not because he has low latent inhibition high IQ combo but by his portrayal of the character. I just wish there were more scenes in the showers or Scofield in his boxers. Beats S having to pause the player for additional time (fantasizing?).

I still got 10 more episodes before the 1st season ends and though I have fished out most of the spoiler and no thanks to S, I still feel the authenticity of the plot. I don’t mind the spoilers, really, it helps me get over the suspense. Again this is my blog and move elsewhere if you don’t care. Why should I care about how you feel? Get a life! Better yet, get me season 2!

Going Mental

2007-03-05T21:10:00.001+08:00

I got a scare when Albert texted me. It was really out of the blue. Albert informing me that I have borderline personality disorder came as a shocker. I know I am mental in one way or another and Albert telling me that I have the criteria to fall under such diagnosis was really a big scare for me. Hmmm, I reckon that Albert was on his review hence the unsolicited consult. Anyhow, I quickly asked him of the criteria used to asses the condition and he replied with the following: instability of mood, behavior, relationships (many are bisexual ) and self-image; impulsiveness and constant crisis. Albert retorted with “see ikaw na ikaw!”. In addition Albert had these things for follow-up: People with borderline personality disorder sometimes think people or things are ALL GOOD or ALL BAD (splitting), suicide thoughts, mini psychotic episode ( 2 minutes of psychosis ). I asked him what he means by psychotic episode. He told me “nababaliw”. Now that is a real scare.

I was actually worried because I had all these behaviors. Admittedly, I am very moody. Most of my staffs have this to say about me. It was really hard for them to asses whether I’m in a good mood or not. My mood also dictates how I react to certain situations. I have committed to memory what Albert told me about my constant heartbreak. Albert was worried that it shows my instability in a relationship and that it is not healthy. Here it is again. I’m also very impulsive. I would in a whim whip out something because I wanted it and fast. This is very true of my spending habits which put me in a constant financial crisis!

What’s worst was me being a negative bloke. I remember telling my ex Mark that I see the glass as half-empty. So everything with me was bad or even worst. One good thing though that come out of Mark was his faith in me to see the glass as half-full. Up until this day, I still try to see the innate goodness of everything.

I often think of ending my life more than once. Heck I even branded my 22nd year as my suicidal year. I told myself it’s time to face the music and admit that I am one.
I asked Albert of the treatment for such disorder, he told me that there is no pharmacologic treatment but psychotherapy can be tried. Oh great, I’m really going mental.
Albert asked me if I have all those things that he mentioned or even some of it. I told him I don’t know. What I know is that I am mental. I might be suffering depression, bipolar disorder, anxiety or it could just be because of stress but I’m no expert to label my self as one. He asked me again, this time I could sense that Albert becoming more stern with his questioning. I still answered the same. He asked me the 3rd time telling me I need to be honest so he can asses my condition. After a pause, I told him YES!

It was a nerve wrecking wait. I opened up a bottle of beer that I kept in the fridge in times like this. Still no response from my good friend. I kept my cool and called out to Ika and Tiny who was horse playing and embraced them. I felt I was so alone. I could swear I’ll break down into a psychotic episode if Albert hadn’t responded on time.

This is hard. I don’t know how to tell you this but I think you should see….
ME!
You don’t have borderline personality! When you think you have it,
then
YOU DON’T! It works on the subconscious mind and you’re not supposed to
be aware
of it. And because you think borderline ka eh di ka borderline!"

I had to call him that instance and verified his message.

“Talagang masama lang ang ugali mo! Hehehe! Magpakabait ka kasi.”

To which my response was,

“hay naku
Alberto, I miss you!”.

Apparently he also used the same test with Lorenzo. That time it was for Narcistic disorder. Albert was certain that Lorenzo is one. And according to Albert, Lorenzo denied everything. Well, that’s another story for us to guffaw when I got to see those guys prolly this April.

On the brighter side, I am back on my circuit training with my personal trainer Joel over at
Fitness First. I got a good deal of 25+5 session free. After missing out on my Sunday badminton training I really need a good work-out especially now with the summer gimmicks just around the corner.

Mantra

2007-02-25T21:04:00.001+08:00

Snakes are the wisest and most enigmatic of all signs. They are thinkers who also like to live well. In money matters, people born in the year of the snakes have good luck. Snakes are innately elegant, charming, romantic and sophisticated. Communication is one of their best suit and they are gifted with the ability of a special feeling that enables them to judge situations correctly spotting potential bottle neck and reacting immediately. Their ability to read complex situations quickly and looking at a problem from a variety of angels and then briskly set about resolving them in a quite, controlled, convicted manner makes them very good in making executive decisions. Plus they gifted with a good memory.

Snakes are self-confident to a fault. They may get into needless trouble because of their difficulty to take counsel. They dislike frivolities and foolish talk and it is almost impossible to fix their attention and may soon wander. Snakes anger can be quickly aroused, they are the jealous types and very possessive. They will soon get back if there is a suspicion that someone has taken advantage of them. Rejection is the worst thing that can ever happen to the snake person. They need to feel welcome, accepted and approved. Snakes need a lot of security.

It takes time for snakes to get over their fears or to discuss their weakness. However, they often show extraordinary sympathy when presented with opportunity to help those who are truly in need. They make protective and caring friends. Snake person perfectly knows how to wind down and relax when such opportunity arises. When reaching their goals, snakes withdraw to gather their thoughts and rest. But they need not much time to renew their energies and be ready for new challenges.

Advise for snakes in this year of the pig

Snakes need to practice caution this year. It is a revolutionary year for snakes with a chance for an exceptionally good fortune this year.
If snakes wish to be lucky, they need to step up to bat and take a swing.

NO MORE SITTING OR SLEEPING WAITING FOR LUCK TO FIND YOU!

Settle old debts, keep your promise and if there are old grudge, clear it up. It’s the first step in bringing fortune your way!
Snakes need to dig out areas of jeopardy and dismiss them. Snakes should create opportunities themselves and make the most by putting in considerable efforts and by becoming flexible in your approach. Be thorough in your thinking, your planning and your doing to rid opportunities of whatever risks inherent with them. Be tactful and manage your affairs discreetly.

BE PRUDENT WHEN YOU DISBURSE MONEY. DO NOT INDULGE IN FRIVOLOUS SPENDING!

You will do good this year if you have anything to do with travel, or transportation.

Singles may not find a proper anchoring relationship that they are looking for.

Easier Said Than Done

2007-02-24T19:18:00.000+08:00

One trait that I would have to say I got from me being a snake would be my charm. Nope, I’m not being airy, just that I acknowledge that I am such. As with all traits, it could work as an advantage or a disadvantage. Really, I’m not kidding. Being charming and all could work for your disadvantage.
This is what I realized when Chrizzy confided in me about her recent heartbreak. Good thing I was able to move on with mine but there were several things I should be doing and I even charmed myself into believing I can. For instance, I was effectively loosing weight because of my 3 times a week badminton. Since turning single, I gained weight. I was even planning my day’s itinerary every night to no avail. Ahhhhh! I charmed myself to go back to gym training but admittedly I was lazy. And talking to Chrizzy and seeing her devastated and all crazy because of her heartbreak seemed to put me questioning my current state. Yes here I am able to move on but there are some things easier said than done. I’m putting hold of so many things because I am enjoying my being single again. No one to prod me when I needed an extra lift, no one to remind me that I’m being lazy and that life is better spent awake than asleep! That’s why I’m putting it all here. Even ETC is prodding that bikini season is just a month away! And I got an assessment end of month! I need to shape up! Grrrrr!

A Snake in the Year of the Pig

2007-02-18T02:35:00.000+08:00

Honestly, I’m not a superstitious lot. I really don’t know why I’m so into following the cautionary guidelines set upon by the experts. According to Chinese horoscope, I was born in the year of the snake, fire snake to be exact. And following the prediction for us snakes in this year of the fire pig, it’s not a good one.

Pigs and snakes are opposites. So if and when the pig throws out one hell of a party, for sure snakes are not going to be invited. Since it’s the year of the pig, all the energies are going to be in the pig’s favor. Being the opposite means we are channeling the opposite. As per Chinese Zodiac, I need to have a tiger symbol to repel the pig. I got myself 3, one on my room’s door, another in my northwest, and the third I keep with me. So far so good!

Experts’ advice is for us snake to hibernate! Que horror! Me, to lay low? Personally I feel I need to move out and venture into things more thrilling. I’ve been in a state of hibernation for what felt like half a decade. This could not be an apt advice for me. Maybe that is why I went to the extent of believing I could turn the tide, hence the tiger amulets! Nonetheless, I guess there is wisdom to it that I move with extra care. Besides, I need to be more finesse now that I’m nearing my 30’s.

It was fortold that I’d experience change before the new year starts in terms of relationship. I entered the year of the fire pig single. I intend to stay this way for as long as I can. I’m on a sabbatical leave on entering relationships. In this aspect of my life I would gladly oblige to hibernate. Christine who gamely posed for me in this shot is also single now. It’s just that I’m a fool who always rush in. And most often, I got to see the folly of my ways at the end. I just don’t like the feeling of regret. For Christine it was kissing dating goodbye. Well I say good luck to her.

Career wise, I want change. I could settle for even a change in the surroundings, I just want to have some sort of change. I have this goal that I’ll make my bold move as I approach the age of 30. Technically I am 30 but I’ll wait till my birthday to panic. I feel I’m ripe for the picking and that this is my time to shine.

Merry Meet Again Chuva!

2007-02-12T00:23:00.001+08:00

I have never met anyone like Raye. Honestly, I haven’t had a friend as loud and as proud as him. All my biases were gone the moment he walked right in through my life sashaying with the flare of a true queen. He really did put colors in our dull lives.

It is also because of this flare that we often clash, especially at work. Sometimes I would have to resort to my bitchiest diva mode to get his attention at work. There were times that both of us have forgotten to separate our personal lives from our work. Living in one roof will do that, but I don’t have any regrets. As with Mamu and all that have gone before us, Ron, Rick, Peachy, Joey, Cris, Letty, Bogs, et al, we have survived Cebu because we have found family amongst one another.

From one Fairy to another, I wish you all the best Chuva and merry meet again!

X and Y

2007-02-10T15:59:00.000+08:00

It was my second day of mourning and I would be meeting up with Eugene in the evening to fill him up on my current affairs. I said to myself that I have to tell him what happened despite the fact that I have knowledge that they were having difficulties with their relationship as well. Sherwin the other night was earnestly urging me to tell Eugene what happened knowing that my ex would be able to help me go through my mourning.

I finished up quite late at work and sent Eugene a message that I would take long. Early that morning I also sent word to all my friends that I was single again. I also sent one to Paul. As I was heading to the meeting place, I received a message from Paul telling me to hold on. I was relieved to finally get a response from him. I asked him to join us but he declined. I figured that their domestic problem could still be in effect. He did reassure me though that we’ll get together perhaps when the situation permits it.

I felt awkward having to spill my guts with my ex. But Eugene wasn’t just an ex. He is the standard. I usually would just walk away and keep it to myself but I have decided to seek solace from people I proudly call my friends. Its difficult facing what these people have to say, especially those whom I know cared for me genuinely. But I needed to process my mourning and face the reality of what had happened.

Eugene works best dissecting the events. After telling him my side of the break-up, for which I think I should follow Sherwin’s advice to have it taped, he started asking me questions for him to better asses the situation. He did caution me to be as objective as I could, knowing how I tend to be dramatic. With all earnestly and compassion, Eugene was able to point to me several issues for which I stand corrected. Knowing my biased ways, it helped clear the issue of why I felt hurt. With all honesty, I would not want to take my ex’s suggestion of us being better off as friends. The feeling of defeat, shame and betrayal encompasses my ability to know and to act better. If not for the counsel of friends such as Eugene, Sherwin, Mamu, et al I would be as bitter as I was the night I heard that from him.

Everything is supposed to be worth it. That is what Eugene reminded me. There shouldn’t be regret. To move on is to realize the folly of my ways, learn from it and take it along with the great positive memories and the learning of the experience. I have learned a lot from my 4 months with him. And I’m not regretting that. I’ve come to realize the things that I did wrong, mostly my paranoid tendency to think of the worst ahead. That is where my regret lies. Not able to do what I must in the present because of my fears. I made it my partner’s mistake when it was clearly my own.

Owning up to my faults is one. Facing them is another. I did not give him the chance to say his piece. In effect I denied him his peace. Very typical me! I hide within the veneer of someone who is strong. I was mistaken. Still with the realization I could not find the strength to face him. I am still mourning. I am pacing myself. My impatience taunts me. But I know better and thank you my friends.

Drama King

2007-02-09T16:04:00.001+08:00

The truth is I am hurting. The hurt comes from the disappointment. The disappointment was because of a failed relationship.

I am mourning for my loss. I am saddened by the loss of someone familiar in my life. It is difficult getting through the day knowing you are once again alone.

The truth is I am not alone.

I am thankful that I allowed myself to seek the solace of people I call my friends. Something I learned from my previous experience. I am blessed to have a support group that let me know that I belong. It helps a lot.

I realized that my impatience proved my better when I refused to remain single. Sherwin reminded me of what I used to tell him that when one loves one unconsciously prepared oneself to get hurt. Chuva reminded me of how pessimistic my views were when I told him that I don’t believe in happy endings. Albert was all too worried that I hopped from one relationship to another. It’s not healthy according to him. Steve advised I should have a rest and Kiko reminded me to move on.

I know I want to continue living my life but I need to go through my loss and pain. Three days is all I’m giving myself.

Yet again I have learned more about myself coming out of this experience. Just a matter of five months since my last heart tragedy. I realized now the need to pace myself, to take a breather, and to enjoy my bachelor’s life. I was not burned; rather I was watered and nourished to maturity.

Sinulog Entry

2007-02-04T05:07:00.001+08:00

ACCIO HARRY POTTER!

2007-01-07T01:55:00.000+08:00

I have told myself that I would just enjoy the movie adaptation of Harry Potter and to think that I'm enjoying books 5 and 6 now stirs in me some sort of frustration. Why on heavens did I not pick it up sooner? I thought of it as a childish pursuit, which makes me a hypocrite since I subscribe to comic books monthly. Maybe I just don't want to hitch the bandwagon since everyone I know plus their dogs were reading it? Maybe it was the misinformation I've been hearing labeling it as the devil's work? Trust me, I felt I have missed out on half of what was good in life. Fortunate for me, I have Teban to thank for. He was complaining that he had spent too much time in front of the boob tube and that it's making him lazy. Or was it making him crazy? Beats me! He then decided to reread his HP and every time we have slack time together, he would carry his copy and read with leisure. He would share his thoughts after every reading and it created in me a fascination with the book. It also helps knowing that the next movie installment is coming soon. So I decided to borrow the book which Teban appreciatively approves of. If I haven't known better, he was leading me by example. Between him and me, I am the definitive couch potato.

Teban finished rereading it in just 2 weeks. I actually would like to pace myself so I could read it longer. The moment I picked up the book and read its first chapter, I realized I would have major schedule adjustment. True enough, I would trade my 8 hours sleep to just 4. People from work even thought I was reviewing for something big because I always have the hardbound book with me. Whenever Teban and I see each other, he would open up the discussion on how I felt about the book. It was so much fun discussing it opening up new views on certain aspects. Even with my good friend S over lunch, I would bug him with his insights of how things unfold. Sometimes I would like them to spoil it for me, sometimes I would caution them. Sometimes I would even surprise them because I have made some research over the net. It was really a load of fun.

I finished Order of the Phoenix in 10 days and decided I'm ready to devour the latest installment. I purchased the softbound copy of the "Half Blood Prince" and finished the whole book in just a week. Now I've told Teban I'm not the kind of guy that would go back on the previous books because I already have seen the movie adaptation of books 1 to 4. I am having second thoughts now. What's weird was I saw Randy, one of our badminton buddies reading "The Sorcerer's Stone". His tripping would be book then the dvd's. Whew!

I decided to follow Teban's advise to follow it up with either "Tuesday's with Morrie" or "The Five Person You'll meet in Heaven". I got the latter since the former was out of stock. In between I'm devouring all of Harry Potter's magic spells which I downloaded from Wikipedia. Thanks to the toxicity of the "Sinulog" celebration, I still have my hands full keeping me not to finish my latest book in a jiffy.

Now my worry lies on what to read next. I'm in the zone and I want to keep doing my readings. Fortunate for me, again, MV Doulus is in town. Teban and I scheduled a trip to the floating bookstore. I got a trade paper back of “Lord of the Rings” trilogy for only 400 units which is equivalent to 400 pesos. It’s a bargain indeed! Teban’s total haul was less than 600 for which he got loads of stuffs for his school.

New Year's Revelry!

2007-01-01T13:59:00.000+08:00

I thought my welcoming of the New Year would be limited to our impromptu “salu-salo” with the Cebu staffs. Again, like last Christmas, the couple Stefan and Winston was there to spice-up my New Year’s revelry. With another SMS message from Stef asking me if I would want to join them since they had this spare ticket for the countdown. I said yes in an instance. Teban would be with his family till after the fireworks so it’ll be great to party while I’m waiting for him.

Our quickie of a party with the staffs went well even with the speed by which we come up with the preparation. Well we’re not in the F&B industry for nothing. All of us appreciated the time-out from work and the party was a welcome treat for all of us. Good thing Ma’am Jo was able to come up with sponsored drinks for our booze. I think everybody was drunk by the time it reached 10PM. Everyone was enjoying the music dancing with delight even though Alvin, our technician mixes was out of this earth.

I knew the moment they see me sneak out, they wouldn’t let me leave.I went out of the party quietly so as not to attract any attention. I need to hurry. I still have to prep up for the countdown and I haven’t had ironed my nicest wardrobe for the event.

Ika was jumping tirelessly the moment I opened the door. I realized that she’s been alone the whole day since I got out really early to accompany Teban do his rounds. After that we went straight to our badminton training then work afterwards. I decided to play with Ika for a while and also readied her so that she’ll be all pleasing for the New Year. She’s been a sweetheart and I really appreciate that she continues to be my joy.

Rhoda and Raye arrived from the party just in time for me to hitch a ride to Marco Polo. They were going to Tops to see the city’s firework from there. I would have come if not for the invitation of my favorite couple.
I’ve met up with Stef who was with his couple friends Janet and Dan. Winston was on-duty but the good thing was he works for Marco Polo so in essence he’s with us. We went up to the viewing deck to get ready for the countdown. It was a cocktail set-up and it was quite chilly on the view deck. Good thing I have my coat on so I was able to enjoy the ambience. We spend time taking pictures and drinking while waiting for the countdown.

The moment the clock strikes 12, all of us had readied our selves for the big bang and secured us champagne floats for the toast. The view was magnificent. You could see the fireworks display from all over the city, the advantage of being situated in a hill. Everywhere you look, you would be dazzled by the different array of pyrotechnique flashing left and right. I wondered alone so as Stefan and Janet to capture more of the majestic view. It was really a treat for the senses.

I met up with Teban past 1am. He has his new year's revelry with his family. It was a great way to start the year with my current and ex having the opportunity to get to know each other. At least there's no tension of the previous past.

It was a long day but it was all worth to begin the new year! Cheers!

Merry Christmas!

2006-12-25T16:21:00.000+08:00

Never had I imagine I would end up being grateful this holiday season over dinner with Winston and Stefan. I was resigned with the notion that I’ll be spending my Christmas alone.

Neither was I sad nor lonely. I was just over playing my zeal as a drama king. Though I was alone I knew my family and love ones was with me in heart and spirit.

I really didn’t expect they’ll be there for me. So imagine my surprise when they paid me a visit while at work. I decided I’ll bury my self with work so I wouldn’t feel alone this Christmas. They got me the cake I gave them last Christmas. Good thing I had a different gift for them this year. I gave the couple my very own recipe of chocolate oatmeal cookie that I had my girl friend do for me. Got no time to do it myself.
Since it was a perfect time to try our treats, I prepared 3 cups of coffee to enjoy the sweets. I was really glad they dropped by.

I thought it was going to be an ordinary week for me. Well in fact it’s an extraordinary season to celebrate. Good thing Teban got me in the groove to feel the season's joy when we went to his couple friends' Christmas lunch. It's very refreshing to see another couple celebrating christmas with their staffs while there were several friends to share the revelry.

While at the party, Teban and I were also treated with 2 lovely doggies, Purple and Harme. Their owners and our hosts for that lunch party was Mark and Harley. Like me, they are also dog lovers. Purple resembles my Ika in most ways and Herme is this nice mini pincher. Teban instantly liked Herme because of her sweet and low maintenance demenour. Sure was nice knowing my Ika could have some playmates.

It made me beam with hope knowing that God is indeed good. And it was all worth it knowing you are surrounded by people you love and cherrish!